My story :D

Well I'v been thinking if I should post anything here or not since this got opened.. like the very second and thought I would sit back and wait, been reading over some of the other posts and thought, shit my problems aren't anywhere near what other people have :|
So I thought I would create an account just to post this so you all don't know who I am >_>

Anyways..
I'm currently 18, my mum died when I was 3 from a drug OD, and closest family member to me, witch was my uncle died just under a year ago in a car crash. I have prostate cancer. Only people to know this is the doctor I saw about it, and myself. I'm not going to be telling anyone as well. My dad as always worked hard, he owns his own company witch I work for, and has never really been around for me, he would pay people to look after me and drop and pick me up from school etc. I was fat all my life and a nerd, Had my first kiss when I was 16.. saw myself as a joke.. so at 15, I tired to kill myself. But my aunt who we were looking after at the time happened to walk in on me cutting myself and rushed me to the hospital. I couldn't even kill myself.. so after that, I never left me room. Got an eating disorder and lost all my weight so was finally not fat atleast. When I got back to school all my "friends" (witch never really were my friends, they just made fun of me) started ignoring me, so I had no friends, I started just rapidly adding random people on myspace, and then sending them lame excuses on why I added them, like "oh I thought you were someone else, but hey, whats up" until I found a girl that went to a school close to me, started talking and she was dating a guy from my school, so I started hanging out with them, they happened to be drugo's though, cool group of people just really drug fucked. After hanging out with them within 2 weeks I was doing weed. not just a little, I mean going to the bathroom in class just to get high.. was lucky I never got caught because even people in the class could smell it. 2 months into this, I get myself expelled for breaking into another school while on exam block. All my other mates left because they were about to get caught for selling drugs at school. So I moved to another school for 3 months, not going to go into detail with that, because nothing really happened there, same old shit. but while I was there, one of those random people I added started talking to me again, now she only lives like 30 mins from me and wanted to meet up, so I went, Thats when I started to drink, a shit load.. she would invite me to parties and I would get wasted (this is where I got my first kiss, with some drunk chick who was willing to fuck anything with a heart beat) I mean im not a bad looking person, when im not fat that is was just hard for me cos I was so shy. Then I meet a friend of hers, (witch is my girlfriend right now) and we started going out, she had just broken up with a guy and was upset, and I just helped her out. Now I love her to death.. but shes made me give up so much, Atleast I stopped drinking and stopped doing drugs, but she made me give up games, the only place where I could be myself and escape from everything... she made me delete my facebook and myspace, I lost all contact to my (good) friends.. and now have nothing but her, I can't let her go, cos im scared I wont be able to find anyone else, not that I would want to right now, because I Still want to be with her atm


(need to edit, at work now)

 

She seems controlling thats not good. You can't have just her you need others. I think you need to reconnect with some of your friends or at least try to make new ones that don't do drugs. Trust me it IS a great path(drugs) but always leads to a bad place in the end.

 

Its a great path? dont think those are the words people want to hear
and it seems like your life has been taken over?
do you have any time to make friends??
or even know how to?
(serious questions)

 

^ well i meant they make you feel all great and junk which is temporary but i did mention it always leads down a bad path... jail, death, etc.

 

pretty sure I know who you are.

I will wait till you finish it before I make any comment

 

Cool story, bro.


edited: rather rude, sorry. I was serious about this response but someone might get offended
Best of luck,

Brandon

 

Requesting this get deleted and IP banned maybe??
and if he was looking for attention, he would have told people he was going to do it..
not just try it.

People like you are the reason people end up killing themselves.
this is why abuse like this is illegal.

 

I offered my help, he can choose to reject it or receive it

 

your telling him to kill himself.
how is that helping?
if someone has problems its not helping telling them they dont have a problem, and they are worthless.. and to kill themselves.

 

It's support and assistance to help someone get better or through something and not encouraging to hurt/kill themselves.
I cannot believe you actually said that.

" but someone might get offended" are you fucking kidding me?

 

I'm in disbelief that you would even suggest that. >_<

Tell your girlfriend that you love her and all, but she can't control your life. Some things that she made you quit are good for you, like drugs and alcohol. But gaming and social networking? You've got to put your foot down.

 

Having a place to vent helps too, for some people. It's like having a heavy weight lifted of ones shoulders. Apparently talking helps or so i've been told many times but I personally don't like to talk much in details about my problems.

 

People like you super should be IP banned, thats abuse..
Ignore it people
But Eliza, this is a place where no one knows who you are. no one can judge you..
well they wouldnt be able to, and anyone that acts like they can and do, are just fooling themselves and are fucked

 

Ye but that would require typing for a long time... too many problems too little care to fix them. Don't worry his words don't faze me the slightest.

 

If you let someone else control you, your headed down nothing but a worse path of destruction that not even you have come anywhere near so far.

 

No, I'm still here.
Just never logged in to finish it, never had the time.
Just been watching replies so far.
But it is pretty sad that you are telling people to kill themselves.

I think Sythe should get your IP address, find out where you live, and report you to the local police about online bullying
Witch last time I looked.. they don't take lightly.

You are truly sad.. wasting your time to make other people feel bad.. and for what?
What kind of kick do you get out of it?
Were you abused as a kid and feel like you have to take your anger out on the rest of the world, come here and find someone who is abit done, see them as an easy target because you really are unhappy about your life and you are looking for people that are worse off and make it even worse for them..

I have learnt over time to just ignore fuck heads like you.
You are only doing what you do to get some kind of attention out of it.
Well here it is
I see that you are a sad little fuck you might have no life and loves to site on a website just to make others feel bad.

Anyone that pays any attention to you needs to learn, there are many more dick heads out there, you let one effect you, your not going to be very happy through-out your life.

So please, do not comment on the threads here.
Its not needed
Its not wanted

and I'm sure you can find more useful things to do with your time.


Now to responded to some of the things people having been leaving.

Thanks for all your feed back, even though this isn't yet finished.

I would do anything for my girlfriend..
you have only heard one side of it..
shes really a lovely girl.
shes not controlling.. only doesn't like me talking to other girls, and doesn't like me playing games.. that's about it.
I decided other things like.. where our money goes, what we do everyday, and other really small things.

shes not controlling my life, its a 50/50 split.

I love her to death and wont leave her.
I played those games 24/7 anyways, it was bad for me.
I am glad that she made we quit them, it was doing me no good.

I will try to finish this as soon as possible.
Thank you

 

I lol'd..
Dont understand why they are doing it

 

sounds like shes taking control of your life (in a good way)
but don't depend on her too much. life sucks, you break up, and you will be depressed again and i can tell you that for sure. Control yourself and don't be too attached to her. not saying show her but be prepared from the inside