Anxiety

I have massive anxiety issues, I was actually told by a psychiatrist.

I am get SO paranoid around people, walking to school, going ANYWHERE, walking around in a shop, talking to shop keepers etc.

Example:
When I walk to school, I almost cry every time, not even joking, close to tears because I feel that everybody is looking at me.

At the shops, I force anybody with me to carry my purchased items.

At school, teachers elect students to get a "certificate" for being good, so I purposely be a fuckhead JUST So I don't have to stand in the assemblies.

At skate parks (I bmx) if there are more than 2 people there, I will wait to see if they're going, if not, I go straight home.

I don't know why, but it sucks so much.

I wish I could be like my friends, I have friends that don't care what they say/do as long as they feel that they need to say it, or want to say it.


My "condition" doesn't make me socially awkward, in fact all my friends see me as a really outgoing person. But it's when i'm not around friends when it all kicks in.

At parties etc, I'm too scared to socialize until I've taken in a few cans of johnny or jimmies or ruskis or something.

At the age of 16, you'd think somebody wouldn't carry on like this, but oh boy... I wish I could stop.

Anybody else here that I can relate to? It's nice knowing that i'm not the only mentally fucked up person in the world.