Help Before It's To Late

I have had depression problems for years now and nobody knows about it i hide it from my friends and family i play it off like im so happy but truly i have had bad depression for years i have had many suicide thoughts i have attempted suicide i just do not think life is worth living anymore i think the world would be so much better off without me i always see my friends getting ahead in life im 19years old im a male i see my friends getting there licence going to college ave girl friends that are true and love them yet when i try to succeed in life i always get kicked down i keep getting kicked down in life and im sick of dusting my self off i think it would just be easier to let it all go and do what needs to be done i have already written a suicide note i think tonight is the night im gonna hang my self no more backing out just for my family and friends time to start doing things for me i have no escape from this nightmare i call life only thing i have is Runescape and Music i have just last night got scammed for an item i played Runescape for 7 Years to get which was a Santa Hat long story short i was gonna sell it for cash to give to my mother before i died for the bills to relief some of her stress because i live with a very poor family never have food anything so i just like to help people but like i said now its time to help my self by ending it all the Santa Hat scam happen by the guy which was from Sythe saying i need to see proof you have ill pay you $160.00 U.S.D we used Team Viewer he said have runescape account up with the character that has the Santa Hat have it in his Inventory along with your Sythe User-Name i did so while all along pleading with this guy to not scam me and i mean pleading he kept assuring me he wasn't going to so he some how after i disabled his mouse got another mouse and over road my mouse and disabled mine so i couldn't do anything he dropped my Santa Hat and when i was able to get back on runescape after exiting Team Viewer he had already picked up my Santa Hat and turned off his chat on MSN and everything so i could no longer contact him that was all i had left for an escape from my nightmare of a life if somebody could please help me id highly appreciate it and let my self live another day and maybe another day i am so over life now that was my last straw without help it is pointless to continue living somebody please help.

 

In my opinion you should tell your family what your really going through, They will help you in some sort of way.

 

Just keep picking yourself back up off your feet, sooner or later, you will dominate in making your self proud for what you have done, and for what you have not done in your life.

Don't worry about it, keep living life to it's fullest.

 

No it isn't worth picking my self up anymore plus my Santa is gone that took away my escape im stuck now

 

to be honest with you.. if you let a santa hat shape the future of your life you deserve to die. I dont care how cruel I sound cos in this life you have to get things the hard way to you so you can learn properly. If you're always looking for other people's help and not standing on your own two feet to fight back at life and to become what u know/want to be, you will always be a bum.
You wana know a hard life? a life in poverty man when you dont even have a roof in your house and it just rains onto you during winter. even a life in the hood when ur in danger if just stepping into a different gang's area.
runescape and being low on cash irl isnt the worst of you worries believe me.
thousands have gone from rags to riches anyone can do it...
and to fix up your social life just gain confidence and never fear the outcome of rejection cos it happens to everyone believe it or not.
good day.

 

It seems like your asking to be given some sort of Runescape thing that will cover your loss from the scam and also let you "live".

If you are being serious and not lying about having depression problems when you don't, then let your family know about it and how your feeling, there's nothing left to do then that unless you have the money for a professional.

Good luck!

 

Hello i wanted to get on and give an update last night i did attempt suicide again i had a belt around my neck and as i was ready to kick the chair out i had an overwhelming rush of memories and thoughts of how bad my family would rather me stay and how much it would hurt them so i decided to live another day and also i have read the comments of others such as Mounir4 and DMR well Moun first off the Santa didn't shape my life it was just an escape and to say somebody deserves to die is absolutely horrendous i believe you your self must have some very deep personal issues you need to resolve and also you must have misunderstood i actually never rely on others for anything im very independent i do everything on my own and i actually help others and also you are mistaking because i am far from a bum i would just sometimes in life wish us as man kind could help one another and treat one another better then we do it is pitful that we are at the top of the food chain but yet animals are better then us in many ways we could learn allot by watching them also i have been fighting back for many years actually so your wrong again and also i actually have self confidence when i talk to people such as women i have had many girl friends the point i was trying to get across was that i wish i could find a real girl and not all these whores liars cheaters conceded ignorant bitches and for you to tell me i dont know what it's like to grow up poor well actually i do i have lived very poorly for years i have lived in a house where shit water was dripping from our up stairs neighbors house i have lived in places where there were holes where i could literati see and talk to my neighbors in there apartments i have had dirt floors i have gone without food for 1month all the time i have been poor so you were wrong again and yes i do realize being poor in Runescape shouldn't reflect my life but it does when that is my escape and yes i realize people have come from rags to riches i just do not believe that's me so thank you for your words but i do think you have issues of your own and you need to evaluate your self before you do others i came on here for support not to have some nobody spit everything i said in my face that was a truly low life thing you have done so thank you for that i hope you have a nice day. Now for you DMR you saying i am acting about my depression problems i i actually am not and if you had sense you would actually be able to recognize depression when you see it because i actually am highly depressed as as for the somebody helping me in Runescape yes i was hoping somebody could be kind as to help me because i think man kind should help each other in times of need instead of sitting back and being so selfish and inconsiderate i think animals have more compassion then us humans do i do not believe we belong on the top of the food chain but yet at the bottom but hey i hope you have a great life thank you for your words good bye. and as for the rest of you who tried to offer encouraging and up lifting words i thank you very much your words meant allot to me i wish all Humans were like that but unfortunately they are not so thanks again hope you all have an amazing life.

 

"Drama609" You are good at that, making drama.

Thing is, It's hard to believe you have depression problems but that I wouldn't know but I am just saying, according to your story, its hard to believe. You keep mentioning your scam loss meaning that you are looking for sympathy in form of RuneScape goods. If you read my previous read fully, you would see that I did provide suggestions regarding your problem. What do I get for doing that, I get bashed for being an unfriendly human being that does not help others?

copy paste from previous post - "If you are being serious and not lying about having depression problems when you don't, then let your family know about it and how your feeling, there's nothing left to do then that unless you have the money for a professional.

Good luck!"

 

If you find yourself manically depressed over an online game, for which counts for 'shit all' in the real world-- seek medical help, immediately.

 

You definitely need some help, professional help. A game shouldn't influence your life. Seek a psychologist of some sort to help you deal with your depression.

 

Ayo man cause of a santa hat? Get loose bro. Dont get a game to get you down. theres one million worst problems so just make out your lucky for what you didnt get. it could be a lot worst. don't try nothing stupid and youll regret even thinking about anything whenyour older.

 

Regardless of your beliefs, imagine this: You live one life. When you die, your brain stops. Your life is gone, there's no fairytale afterlife. There's no god.

Is that enough motivation to continue living? You still have tons of years left in life, and it may same lame but you can do anything you set your mind to.

 

There is a god?
and the most selfish thing you could possibly do to everyone would be to commit suicide. If RuneScape is making you think like this, quit the game right now, because it's not good for someone with a state of mind like yours.

 

Speak to someone, there is another post on this section about suicide and someone posted a really good answer with phone numbers too call anonymously

EDIT : Heres the post

If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.

I don't know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you're reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.

I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won't argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.

Well, you're still reading, and that's very good. I'd like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you're at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let's hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.
Start by considering this statement:

Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

That's all it's about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn't even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.


Don't accept it if someone tells you, "That's not enough to be suicidal about." There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.


Now I want to tell you five things to think about.

1
You need to hear that people do get through this -- even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope.

2
Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, "I will wait 24 hours before I do anything." Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things - just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn't mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it's just 24 hours. You have already done it for 5 minutes, just by reading this page. You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read this page. Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you.

3
People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.

4
Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you.

But there are people out there who can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel. They will simply care for you. Find one of them. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, and tell someone what's going on with you. It is okay to ask for help. Try:

Send an anonymous e-mail to The Samaritans
Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 (TTY: 1-800-799-4TTY )
(In Australia, call Lifeline Australia at telephone: 13 11 14
Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999
Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line
Call a psychotherapist
Carefully choose a friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen
But don't give yourself the additional burden of trying to deal with this alone. Just talking about how you got to where you are, releases an awful lot of the pressure, and it might be just the additional coping resource you need to regain your balance.

5
Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea. So are the various self-help groups available both in your community and on the Internet.



Well, it's been a few minutes and you're still with me. I'm really glad.

Since you have made it this far, you deserve a reward. I think you should reward yourself by giving yourself a gift. The gift you will give yourself is a coping resource. Remember, back up near the top of the page, I said that the idea is to make sure you have more coping resources than you have pain. So let's give you another coping resource, or two, or ten...! until they outnumber your sources of pain.


Now, while this page may have given you some small relief, the best coping resource we can give you is another human being to talk with. If you find someone who wants to listen, and tell them how you are feeling and how you got to this point, you will have increased your coping resources by one. Hopefully the first person you choose won't be the last. There are a lot of people out there who really want to hear from you. It's time to start looking around for one of them.

The information is a copy and paste from: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/