Forgiveness[Freestyle]

I went ahead and asked god for forgiveness
My wishings mixed with sickness can't allow me to go and fix this
So addicted to my demons please allow me to confess this
Sittin in the booth but not reciting my lyrics
Just confessing everything I've done to the pastor cause I fear this
Phenomenon's eating up my stomach
Blaming all the world not allowing me to plummet
Got caught with drugs cause i couldn't fuckin plumb it
And dropped out of college cause i went and willingly dumbed it
Forgive me father for what i've been selling
I've been on a journey and my journey's been compellin
Seeing the addiction indited through their conflictions
Sold a kilo to a single mother that was homeless
She gave up everything, even those that were her closest
Kneeling on her knee's, possessed by a disease
The traffic on them streets never agreeing to a cease
My life up on a lease, before i get cuffed by the police
Never up to comprimise desire to see my shadow rise
Been fingerfucking all my lies, sacrifice it to my demise
Always been on my low's...never there to hit my high's
Reminisce the halo's circling around me hopin that i die
Destiny decides my ride, and tell that bitch destiny i won't swallow my pride
I'm pushin it..keep tellin me that i'm pushin it
Too much puss comin out that zit
Like the cream pouring out a clit
Please forgive my convictions
Demons in my head hungry for a lynchin
Regretless, hungry like a child but the mother is breastless
I sit around them street corner acting like a bum
So the passerby's can assume i'm fucking dumb
It's all a scheme that i've sampled in a dream
The outcome will be outrun
Overfinished, outdone... Tasers all over you now you've been outstunned
Barely ever reached it, professing up his lie's cause he's allowed to teach it
Just beat it, i took it to heart
And forgave all those who betrayed me cause those were who made me smart
Experience i've gained, cold hearted and platently lain
Disdained from my comraderies
Winnings from my sinning has become a natural part of me
And I won't ever forgive til you correctly roger me.

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