Too much time around PC

It pains me to finally admitt that I am addicted to my PC. If my internet goes down for more than 2 hours i get very frustrated and would get upset over the smallest things.

I've spent DAYS in my room without leaving except for food, toilet & showers. It is fucking upsetting me because I KNOW whats wrong but I am too lazy to fix it. It's not that I'm one of those bad hygiene basement dwelling "BROBOTS", no. I have a girlfriend whom I've been with for a whole year, and I love a lot. I have very good grades in my university (I am currently the 4th on my batch).

I just feel... Like I can do much more than spend ~10 hours questing/staking/pking/whatever on RS. I have quit the game for perhaps a week now, and free trade isn't helping. If its not RS its WOW, and if its not WOW its RS... (with some /r9k/ here and there). I also read a lot of books to spend my time.

Literally... looking at the past week all I've done was chat on my computer, read fucking threads about whatever and play some games. Sure my GF came over, we had some fun... Even went out for junk food with a friend.

I admit I am addicted. I want to fix this. I don't need therapy for it... I just need some sort of stronger will. I don't even know why I'm writing it on a website where half of the user base is below 13 (no offense to the rest) when I'm 19 and should pull my shit together like a fucking adult.

I have 3 friends beside my GF (whom I've known for years and years, perhaps since 3rd grade), and dozens of aquaintances who would spend time with me but for some reason I just... don't want to. My attitude in university (second year currently) made me look like a stuck up snob, and nobody who studies my major likes me. I don't give a fuck but I just wnat them to understand its not that I hate them but I enjoy spending most of my time alone.

Even for the past couple of weeks, when my GF would want to go out or come over I'd make up an excuse just to sit home and watch movies that I downloaded the night before.

Fuck.

It's like every day is a fucking repeat of the one before it, except I have newer movies downloaded. I used to be so fucking outgoing and my personality was fun. If I spend too much time outside my room I get angry and become a total dick. I see so much fucking potential in me.. I have so many things to talk about with people... but fuck, man. I'd rather just sit here and do NOTHING all day. I've become so bitter over the course of the years and now I just hate anybody who I don't already know. I don't fucking want that.

I don't want to feel bad about spending time alone. I enjoy it for the most part... but everyone tells me its unhealthy and I sort of feel guilty towards my body and my mind. I am unathletic (god knows when was the last time I did any form of sport), but I am not fat. My girlfriend loves my body. But to me it feels as if I don't deserve my mind or my body or my nice friends and supporting family.

I am in the process of "ATTEMPTING" to fix myself. I preordered a saxophone, and it will arrive in 3 days. When that happens I'll be taking sax classes (in a place very very far from my home) so I can get out my little shell and spend time outside. I hope it works.

TL;DR: I spend too much time in my room. Friends want me to go out with them badly. I enjoy my time alone but I feel guilty (towards my friends, but towards myself mostly). feelsbadman.jpeg

Does anybody else feel this way?

 

No, I don't feel this way but there are so many others that suffer from this problem. Sounds like you are addicted to the internet. Admit it to yourself say it out loud and tell everyone including your gf. Maybe then they will gain some insight and put you in a more understanding position.

Since your online so much google internet addiction and read some of the stories man people lost alot due to the same issues. You don't want that, your smart enough to understand you have a problem, be strong enough to solve it.

 

Your friends want to hang out with you so go for it! Also try to hang out with your girlfriend more because it really seems that you like spending time with her. If you want to get out of the house, go for a walk or get other simple exercise.

The saxophone seems like a great idea. I used to play and loved it. Only thing is you'll still be spending time alone in your room practicing.
Rs Emperor

 

It's simple, just find shit to do that doesn't involve the internet. You're not gunna solve anything by sitting around your house doing nothing trying not to go on the internet - you may ss well go on the internet. Why not try to go out with your girlfriend and friends more often, or do more studying? Fuck, you're in Uni, why aren't you partying?

Also didnt /r9k/ get removed?

 

Yup. Talk about lonely-er hahahaha

 

Dude, Your a teenager (I think?). Their is absolutely nothing wrong with you playing on the computer, this generation thrives on technology, it's the main reason we are so important. I use to be in your shoes really. I have a girlfriend of 2 years now, I was All-state in basketball and track, but now that i think about it their really was nothing better to do when i was home than to pk on runescape or get on sythe. So don't feel like your not living up to your potential because your just in the stage that most of us have all been in and you will grow out of it after a while.

 

Start going to the gym, working out, joining clubs at your university if they have them.

Intermural sports are always a good thing to do. Just either make a team with your friends or sign up for a sport you like. They are very laid back and fun. They get you out of the house and help make new friends and tight relationships.

 

Dude,you really should hit me up. I know what you're going through and that's basically my position right now.

I play games for anywhere around 7-16 hours a day. It pisses me off that I waste so much time, but there's nothing better to do in my opinion. I'm not motivated to be outgoing and meet people. I'm currently dating a girl that i've been with for 2 years so far and I love her to death. Sad thing is that she's like the only friend I have. I have people I smoke weed with and people I buy weed from, but they're not my friends. I lost my job 2 months ago and haven't even started looking for another. I just overall feel like a fuckup...

BUUUTTT I read your thread and I felt that we might be on the same page with a lot of shit. I also know that I need to get to meeting new people. If you ever want to talk about anything, or just chill, pm me. I'm not very outgoing or anything, but I think talking and meeting new people could help people like you and me.

 

i feel the EXACT same way man... i really dont know what to do about it either..
like everyone will want to hang out and stuff but im just like nah or i ignore them sometimes.. and it got to where ppl dont even hit me up anymore unless its on weekends if that and now im getting better at going out and not playing but during the week i dont even study i just scape and play around on the computer.. i hate it i use to play sports and everything now i want to get back into it and im so out of shape and so inexperienced for being in 10th grade..

 

I realized I started doing this my freshman year in college. I was a mechanical engineering student, and I spent all day and night in my single room, alone and on runescape. I noticed myself gaining weight, but I said fuck it. I'm fine the way I am. until about a year later when I realized that I threw away my flourishing Mountain biking career. I was a semi pro biker with all the skills and talent, physical fitness and friends. I was 5'10" and 175, now I'm 5'10" and 235. I walk up stairs and get winded. a few months ago I said FUCK THIS SHIT. just screamed it out loud. I went down to the gym. I only stayed for 20 mins, but I felt better in those 20 mins than I did all of the previous year. I felt frustrated and short tempered whenever my computer was off, and I wasnt staring at the bright LED back lit LCD monitor. I felt pissed going to class, so i started to skip. I realized that if i were to funnel all that frustration into a bench bar, a pair of dumb bells, or a treadmill... I havent lost much weight but i've gained a ton of self esteem lately. I like where I am going, I'm doing my homework, and im actually felling pretty good. I dont think you should cut the computer complete off, but ween yourself off of it.

another solution i found is to buy a bot and let your account run while you're away at the gym or with your friends, or even family. family is the most important as i've found out lately. My grandpa is in his last few hours/days right now and its the hardest thing i have ever gone through so far. He has had cancer for 16 years and hes been a fucking trooper so far. but as we know, all good things come to an end.

carpe diem, my friend.

Illegitimi non carborundum

EDIT:

My dad is an alcoholic as well. He was sober for 15 years until last year when he had a relapse. Addictions are hard to break and in my opinion they are very important to break. even being addicted to a good thing is bad. hence... "too much of a good thing can kill you". just my 2 cents. take it or leave it

 

well first of all.... the shit thats getting you down the most is the fact that you think its wrong to do what you do..... you should know there is a large community of gamers out there who are thinking the same - stereotypes have alot to do with it, make you feel worse than what the situation at hand actually is - if the game makes you happy then play it ? why conform to society... there are fuckheads who have addictions to hard drugs.... alcohol.....sex....power....money.... gaming is one of the few and its quite safe compared to others you dig

do what makes you happy, it is your life... you only get one

live regret and forget.

 

Do what makes you happy, just don't overdo it.
As soon as you feel depressed...stop playing and go outside for a minute.
Helps out.

 

Well if you really want to quit, there's an obvious choice, get off your ass and quit. (not meaning to be so blunt XD)

Will power man. Everyone has those times where you're addicted to the computer, xbox OR masturbation (my favorite) , it cums and goes.

 

Dude it''s hard to just quit. after being on the computer all the time, you sort of lose any idea that you have on how to do anything else. your just hopelessly bored.

 

Since you have a GF and friends you can actually be saved from this pit. Its 10 times easier if you have a good social network.

I've had the EXACT same problem as you with switching between wow and rs, what I found out in the end is that:

PC addiction is like a drug, and the hardest part of quitting is the first 1-4 weeks after you quit. You will think about it too much to be able to distract yourself with simple stuff such as Tv or whatever. You just have to remain resilient during that period, my tips here is to leave home a lot, do activities outside and try the best you can to get addicted to any of them.

Do NOT watch youtube videos related to gaming (videos of wow or RS) they'll fill you with inspiration and motivation which will most likely result in you ending up behind that screen again.

Botting doesn't help either, your addiction will still be there just under a shell.


Good Luck! <3

 

The inability to overcome an addiction effects many people.

All it is, is not being a strong willed person; Not having enough drive to achieve something.

Next time you feel your on the computer too much, just simply tell your brain enough is enough and go do something else. It may not be easy but there aren't many alternatives.

 

If your truely determined, do what i am doing as i feel it is going to work for me. First step i'm taking is selling every one of my accounts so if i wanted to play again i'd have to start at lvl 3 which nobody wants to do. Or delete the account or w/e for your WOW account. Second, go out with your girlfriend more.. get out of the house. Do stuff, go to parties.. and when you feel like getting on your computer, play some xbox360 or ps3. It's alot less addicting than rs so you can actually stop playing to get out of the house but it'll fulfill your addiction and just keep doing that.. 1-3 hrs of xbox, ps3 and just go out.. i'm doing it and so far it's helping alot. Just gotta sell my rs account...