Life = not so good

Well...
1. i see a psychologist already
2. getting anti depressants in a week
3. i see things that aren't there (people) NO TROLL I SWEAR ON EVERYTHING
4. 3 years my moods have lasted..
5. i go through a cycle of happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, depression, optimism etc (most moods, in the EXACT SAME ORDER but random time-lengths)
6. school has lost all meaning
7. life has lost all meaning, im just 'on autopilot' pretty much
then theres
1. my family seems to like me sometimes
2. i have a wonderful gf
3. im skilled appparently (i could be a sporting hero for my country according to alot of people and i can be successful in any field i want to be according to my teachers).


I need help, i have my suicide plan and notes ready. nothing helps at the moment. i am not trolling and i dont want to be seen as an attention seeker, i just really need to get it out there. sorry for laying all this on you. just needa get it out.

 

Your how old?

You might think you're the only one facing all of these problems but there are probably dozens of other people like you. I can't answer you much without knowing your age, but I will assume you're in your mid-teens.

Life is challenging, really. Some moments you'll be very happy, others you'll find yourself in total shit. I'll send you a link for a Dr. Seuss poem, and I will quote my favourite part which I read everytime I feel like shit. I know Dr. Seuss is for kids and this might all sound cheesy, but I don't give a flying tit

Read this whenever you feel bad...

Full Poem Here

My favourite part:

I like how he keeps switching moods in that poem, and to me it feels exactly where you are right now

Learn it by heart if you wish, the idea is not the poem itself (it might be meaningless to some). BUT if it does work the first time, whenver you feel like shit you will not remember the words of the poem, instead you'd remember the feelings it gave you. And from there its all about you and nothing about Dr. Seuss.

This "totem" doesn't have to be a poem, but for me it was. For you it could be a really bad ass movie quote, or a line from a cheesy song, or even a real life object like an action figure (or something you can carry with you at all times).

Don't contemplate suicide... It's way too early. I'm not saying I'm completely against it. I'm just saying give it a few years. Ignore the diehard whiteknights telling you not to do it because they don't know how you feel. Nobody does but you. In a few years time, if you still feel the same way then do it. If not, you'll look back at these feelings you have now and have a big laugh at how "silly" they were.

Either way, I hope I helped you. I'm sorry my post was too long

 

Suicide? Think about that for a second. What problems do you have that can't get better? If you killed yourself then you would have no chance of ever fixing your problems. And your family would be terribly upset. Do you want them to go through something like that? Give it time, I'm sure all of us have had our time in life where we thought we were worthless and would never amount to anything and wanted to just die so you could feel relief. But remember that relief is a feeling. You have to be ALIVE to feel it.

 

Number97. please go jump off a bridge. Listen man I went through this same thing...almost XD but you dont want to hear about that shit Listen...dont kill yourself. You have to understand that things WILL get better. They always do. Life can be so hard, and there can be so much stress weighing you down but..in the end, there will be someone there to help you lift that weight. Listen this is gunna sound really trolly and weird but...go out and have sex, eat a shit ton of chocolate, and watch a ton of comedies. The sex and chocolate make you feel better, and the comedies will do that AND distract you. Youll be in a better mood for a few hours at the least :] just listen...suicide is a terrible thing to do. :L please dont kill yourself man..

 

It sounds like Bipolar and Schizophrenia, a lot of people in my family are schizophrenic and they see and hear people that aren't there. You should probably go to a doctors, psychologist have a history of making people more depressed. Get off the Anti-Depressants, believe me pills don't help... Idk this is what I think because you have a lot of the same problems as some family members I have.

 

Fuck the 2 of you. It is people like you that send many people down the path myself and others are on. I FUCKING SAID I NEEDED TO FUCKING GET IT OUT YOU DUMB FUCKING CUNTS.
Others, thanks for opinions, i see some people dont feel the need to rag on others because of low post count (serious? go fuck yourself) and because their life is so fucking perfect they have to let others know about it. i appreciate the good nature of SOME people.

And the poem, love it

 

You have a family that cares about you (sometimes?), you have a wonderful girlfriend, and you are skilled. Those 3 things are huge. Why are you getting yourself down? What kind of things are putting you in a bad mood?

 

Sporting hero?

Wow, I'm bad at sport.

Life is about enjoying it, you can enjoy it.

You have a wonderful GF, family likes you, and you're good at sport.

If you're good at sport, join a football club or something, it's really something to enjoy, playing for a team and getting heavily complimented when scoring in big games.

But you have problems that you don't like, enjoy the stuff you have, and fix your problems and you'll eventually have a perfect one, suicide just ends all potential, so don't do it!

 

Things will get better, who knows, you might become some extremely famous pornstar who fucks celebrities tommorow?

The bright side is the right side man. Cheer up..

I say! Some TV or a few movies with your girlfriend and a good night is what it takes to help someone.

Cheers man.