Bullying - Anxiety and Depression Problems

I just felt like getting another perspective from some respectable people around here, or anyone who would like to have an opinion on the situation.

Ever since I was about 7 years old, I have been verbally, and physically harrassed by my peers, in school, and outside of School. At first it was all kind of fine, but at the age of 9 or 10, it really started to drag me down and get me down about myself. Basically, nothing has changed. I'm still the same kid, and I'm still picked on.

I refuse to go outside in my neighbourhood or town, because I know people will be around, and if I'm seen, I will be assaulted, and I really don't like that. It's basically lead me to a point of having a phobia of my town, which brings me to the next part of the problem.

Recently, I've had a house break in, which resulted in all of my belongings being taken, but thankfully I had insurance and everything was restored, and I'm in my house happily again. But it's also come at another cost, of feeling like nothing is ever safe, no matter where I am. I sit in my house, alone, and I squirm and get the absolute shit scared out of me at every single noise that I hear that isn't me, or my cat.

I'm basically trying to run away from my problems at the moment, I'm 18, and need to either start doing TAFE or University, I don't know which one. But I really need to get away from this town. But I don't know if it is the best solution to my problem?

Also, over the past few weeks, thought of suicide have been extremely high, and I basically feel as though there is nothing to live for, nothing in life has ever loved me, or liked me for that matter. It all feels like one big fucking black hole.

Any help is seriously appreciated, and yes, I do see a psychiatrist.

Thank you! <3

 

kick someones ass and no one will mess with you. the reason you're bullyed is because you take it and don't do anything about it so they continue

 

The main problem in this situation, other than the actual people who are making you feel this way, is your reaction to it. You need to find a way to turn this feeling of loss into a feeling of determinism. You've grown a phobia of your town? Use that as your motivator to get the hell out, and a university will really help with that.

I basically know how your feeling, except apparently i have more sociopathic tendencies and as a result don't really put much weight on my emotions. This really helps when it comes to situations like this haha.

So in the end basically, you have to change your response to these affectors, don't make them tear you down, make them build you up. Make them do the complete opposite of what they're trying to do, because in the end you'll be better for it and they'll be dumbstruck.

What about your cat? =[

Sorry pal, but that's what life is. It's just a continuous void that we keep throwing every bit of our soul into and we have no idea whats surrounding us or whats on the other side, and were simply set here to take that. We all want to get out of that loop but the fact is we can't.
So you can either sit back and enjoy the ride and take all the shit that comes along with it, or you can fight it tooth and nail to the very fucking end so even though you started and ended it in the whole order of things, you can atleast say I tried my damn hardest to break it and even though I didn't I tried.

 

Listen to me, listen very closley. I am now a senior in highschool with a crap loads of friends and no one messes with me. Want to know why? The trick is you need to prove to your self that your not someone you would bully , and trust me it will rub off.

I'm 6'6 and 200lb and i knew the way people wouldn't want to mess with me is if I took something up that warned people without having to get physical (note ive only lost 1 out of my about 32 fights). Honestly if your that scared of people , you need to hangout with some scary people.

My advice, if your not physically strong enough to take on a well known bully then get some tuff friends. IT DOSE WORK.

 

I feel you man, I'm going through pretty much the same.

The way I get rid of these feelings temporarily is just to have a good time online, since I don't ever go outside. Try to find something online that will just make you laugh for the time being until you can go to University, because that's where most people get out of their shells and start making friends (Or that's what I've heard, since I'm still not living in the dorms yet).

Add me on MSN man, we can talk and go from there, I'll invite you to our skype calls where we have fun and forget about our worries for the day. Just don't give up man, because I'm in it with you.

MSN: [email protected] or you can drop me a PM

Best of luck man, and I hope to hear from you soon!

 

That is most definitely not going to help at all, what I failed to include is that it is the majority of people around here. Most of them want my head and it's really annoying because none of them will do anything by themselves. They travel and fight in packs, and it's annoying. Really, really annoying. I'm fairly fit, 6'4", but people still continue to fuck with me because I listen to Hardcore and I play Video Games.

Thanks Gohan. Added you on MSN.

I've tried to do this, and yeah, most of my friends are tough, but they're not tough enough to stand up for me against about 30 Aboriginal, and Maouri kids, that's for sure. They're extremely big, and nobody wants to fuck with them at all. Everyone trys to stay clear of them to be perfectly honest.

 

You need to find something that you enjoy or makes you happy and go with it. There are certain things in life you can't get around, one of them being assholes.

You have to just try and not let them get you down. Let me know if you want to chat on msn or something.

 

Try your best to leave this town and find another place you can settle down in. This is the harshness of reality. Those people are just plain assholes who think it is funny to bully you. Try to toughen up, not physically, but mentally.

Yes, leaving this town is the best solution. Make sure though when you go to a new place, be mentally strong and confident. That way, no one will pick on you. Don't ever take your life okay dude.

 

Yeah.
I'm hopefully getting away real soon, going to apply for some payments from the govt(I'm un-employed) and get my housing and shit paid for while I go and do some further degree of education.

 

I know how intimidating a group of Maori can be to people that aren't dark skinned. Easiest thing is just to avoid them where possible. Out of curiousity, are you from the brisbane area? (I know a lot of Maori live round there)...

Anyway, Just hang in there, things ALWAYS get better. Life is this great thing you only get one shot at, live it up. Do not let a bunch of pricks get to you. You're of age where you can start making choices for you. I'd suggest going to University, move away from these people and get a fresh start, stay headstrong.

 

I can't sit here and write up a big wall of text because i'm really tired right now but, I am in the EXACT same situation that you are in, I've been dealing with it for years now and it never gets better. The only advice that I can give to you is to keep your head up, and show them that you are not afraid. They feed off your fear, When you are scared, when you are running, when you want to pull the trigger on yourself, is when they WIN.

Running away isn't the solution to every problem, but in a situation like this, it is okay to leave.

 

There must be a reason why everyone is picking on you.
Also, I suggest moving somewhere else that way nobody knows you so you can start over and make some friends.

 

Anchors was just banned, but I'll leave it open since he can still see and any advice is good advice.

 

My suggestion to you would be to go to the gym, and stop playing so many video games.

And no one should ever commit suicide, that's selfish. There IS help for
E V E R Y O N E

 

Mate, build your confidence up. If you think you're being bullied because of your physical appearance: change it. Get a haircut, wear contact lenses, and count the seconds until you get braces off (speaking stereotypically). Bulking up isn't a bad idea either, and if you're worried what people at gym will think of you, do it at home.

The first step to beating bullying is to show that you're not going to take people's shit lying down. Working out and getting bulky is a fantastic way to build your self confidence. No one fucks with you if you're built.

Good luck man, even though you're banned.