I cannot stand life anymore

I just can't stand life anymore. I wake up in the morning and contemplate how i'm going to make it through the day or how am I goign to attempt to NOT make it through the day.


I'm addicted to methamphetamine, something VERY few people know but I only choose to express online. I take the drugs to make my day go by faster, but in reality they make it a living hell.

I can't stand myself anymore. When I look at myself in the mirror i look disgusted and want to vomit. I've lost a tooth from not brushing, and I frequently soil my pants. My car was repossessed becaz of the amount of mone i own to them.

I'm really confused what I should do sometimes.

I also sometimes plot on killing homosexuals neighbors who are always banging around in banana suits next door. I've lost my mind.

Please help me, please.

 

I have a similar substance abuse problem. I get so lonely and bored sometimes i just wanna get so god damn high to make the day go by faster. One thing i suggest is finding a friend who is "above the influence" to just be friends with. it can really help having someone who isn't in the same dope induced mind fuck as you to have your back and help you out

 

Where can i buy one?

Ontopic: There is a suicide hotline, there are also centers to get you off of drug abuse, i wont flame you because ill get infracted since the word TR*** is taboo in this section.

Goodluck

 

YOU WANT TO KILL ME? IM YOUR NEIGHBOR FOR GODS SAKE.

OT: Dont kys ):

 

I can't believe the amount of hateful people in this world.

I hope you all are to be banned, my situation is VERY serious. And no, I have no intention of harming myself.

 

Theres no way your being serious. Look at the gay neighbors with the banana suit thing...That definently doesnt make it look serious.

And if you are, that sucks :/