Serious Issue.

Ok, I have a fuckload of friends, but everytime Im with them, I have thoughts about if they are 2 faced about me, or if they have been shit stirring and saying shit about me behind my back, I cannot chill with most of them because I end up flipping out and smashing them up for no reason whatsoever, besides my thoughts...

example;

Other night I was chillin with my best friend, I got aggressive and thought he's probably been 2 faced to me, told him to admit it and stop being a little bitch, and whacked him...

Last week I was stoned with a couple of mates, I flipped out on a randomer because I thought he was saying shit about me when he was whispering to one of my mates. (my mates knew him, I didn't.)

Everytime Im chilling and theres someone I don't know, I have thoughts of fighting them, and starting shit for no apparent reason just to see if they can fight...

I enjoy fighting... in a sick and twisted way, I love smashing the fuck out of people and I love the adrenaline rush...

I enjoy being whacked, It makes you feel alive, and being jumped by 10+ people is fucking fun... I still fight back because you might aswell, your going to get hit whether you fight back or not right?

I seriously do not know what the fuck is wrong with me, Im severely fucked in the head everytime I go out, and I get shit from my parents for lately staying in on the computer, "firecaping" or playing runescape, or letting my gf over and fucking her. apparently it's a bad lifestyle and it needs to change...I'd be happy to just go out, chill with friends, and have a good time... but everytime I go out, 90% chance I have a fight with a randomer, and my friends think it's also funny to tell me "whack that prick garnett, he's been chattin shit about you behind your back." I know they only do it to see me fight...But I do it anyways because I enjoy it soo much...

As to resolving my twisted issues, I joined a gym... im still part of that gym and go today... but I love fighting and so...I joined a boxing club... got kicked out for headbutting this guy... I joined a kick boxing club... got kicked out for putting a guy in hospital... once I flip in the ring or on the streets... I have to be dragged off...I joined martial arts... got kicked out for doing high blows to the face... what the fuck am I meant to do?


ALSO would It help me saying I do not eat, nor sleep?

 

Well, stop putting it in your mind that you are tough and/or man enough to do any of this.

You're this guy:

http://www.realultimatepower.net/ninja/ninja2.htm

 

shut the fuck up druggo ..
hes asking for help

 

Weightlifting and kickboxing did it for me. Isolated myself for a couple of months then made a new group of friends.

 

Try taking a boxing class, it will relieve your anger and fulfill your need to beat someone up.

 

Honestly, your lifestyle and attitude reflects on the company you keep. Take it from someone who knows. I hung (Still do hang out) with a neighborhood full of people where all we do is start stuff with anyone and everyone that has a problem with us. The thing is, we don't fight people for no reason like you seem to be explaining.

Anyway, being in a group like that - I, too, have the urges to fight. The adrenaline is an addiction, much like tobacco for example. Unfortunately for me, the way I stopped was being put on probation (But that's another story).

You obviously have pent up energy so you need to take it out somehow. Easiest way to do that is do the things that a few above posters mentioned. Weight lifting, running, boxing (With a punching bag, of course), etc.

To simplify it for you, if you're too worn out/sore/tired to fight - you're not going to want to fight.

 

You don't need friends like that. Make some new friends who truly care about you.

Also, stop caring if people talk behind your back. I don't fucking care what people say about me. It all comes down to what you have in the end.

Furthermore, if you love to fight so much, you might want to pick a job that requires you to fight when you leave school. Maybe a bouncer at a club, a cop, a professional wrestler?

Good luck.

 

I suggest you try to get back into boxing, it's a great way to blow steam. I also love fighting and boxing is fucking amazing, in my opinion.

 

Would If I could.. Im banned from quite alot of places around my area within a 20 mile radius. There's this one place I havn't been too, But on the otherhand I would never step foot in there. Its full of 6-12 year olds, and then has like 3 15 year olds, no thank you. I need to find a adult class.