Life Episode 1: Emotional Issues 1.1

Dear diary,

My Dr. didn't renew my testosterone prescription this month and it goes without saying that I have been a little snowflakes these past few days. IDK...

Like everything was going fine between me and @Talon but then things just didn't feel the same. Let me give an example.

So me and T were just chillin trying to hit a bowl and all of a sudden he got pissed that I didn't take a big enough hit or hold it in long enough and I was like "B back off my throat has been hurting recently after that voice box issue we had before" ( my surgery to fix my high pitch vocal response issue ). T then got like super pissed at me and started calling me a cuck and shit and like I didn't know what to do but cry. I left for a while, went to Arby's, and texted him to see if maybe we can meet up and talk about it. He didn't really answer right away so I knew something was up so I went back to our crib and he was chillin with another dude smoking up and he claims they were just cousins, but I knew he didn't have any cousins that old because I was his +1 at his family reunion last winter ( a cold winter it was ). I just played dumb and sat on the love seat and took some deep breaths to calm myself down.

After about 30 minutes of chilling there, T's "cousin" was like "hahaha you're cute" to a joke he told... I instantly knew what was going on. I thought that maybe his cousin knew me and T were a thing, but I guess the Monty Python shirt and my new vans T bought me with his staking money probably made him think I was straight instead of fluid.

I tried to hold back the tears, but they just started pooring. I held in my anger and ran to the bathroom, hand over mouth, to stop myself from throwing up. Leaning off testosterone is not easy and it made my little tummy hurt quite a bit. After it was all done, I rushed out the bathroom where I saw @Talon waiting for me. he asked " are you okay?" and I responded " Physically, yes" and that's when we finally embraced.

You know, me and T are still fighting, but it'll get better I hope.


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