Dear Sythe community, I am writing this thread today because I want you all to know that how much of a cunt I was a few days ago. Basically, a few days ago I wrote on "haha good riddance" on Lame's RIP thread. I know it was immature and childish and it was a horrific thing to write knowing that Lame was a cherished man in this forum but I want you to hear me out. 99% of you wont know what's been going on in my life with the exception of Scotty and John (Im not sure if he's the Sythe john here but I know him by John) I won't go in detail because most of it is personal but I was having a really shitty time and Scotty (my good friend) was helping me get through it. So it got the point that me and him were kind of arguing how if I pulled the plug on my own life no one would care. Scotty bought up the fact that Sythe and other forums would care and he told me how these two sad events occurred in this same week and me being the 17 year old child I let my feelings get the better of me and I said well I would want to go out the same way also, eventually I came on the forums to post some bad things on their respect threads and I now regret it because I've lost a good friend 'Felix' and he was really upset about how I acted. I'm sorry for what I've done and I'm not asking you to forgive me or tolerate me whatsoever, if you wish I will gracefully take the ban for being a piece of shit but I know what I did will never be excused especially since my argument of me being suicidal/upset myself will never justify how I acted. All I want you to know is that I will never let this same mistake happen again and I will never let my feelings get the better of me. To Lame's Family and friends, please find it in your hearts to forget what I've done and bury the hatchet because I know the good originated from Lame's soul and is now a permanent presence on this forum. Sorry if I did not make any sense but I guess you all can take it out on me too because I deserve it, once again I am sorry and I did not mean it at all I only said it because of my own emotions, I've never met Lame so I have nothing against him and he looks like a good guy from looking at how many people have said good things about him. So yeah I guess, I deserve the flame I get from now on and I won't mind lol, If a sythe mod wishes to ban or suspend me I will not fight their decision, Thank you all for hearing me out
Hitting the nail on the head here. Any person who has their own demon would not lash out at someone who has passed in that way, it's far too close to home to make a joke out of it. Thanks for the apology.. Saiyan.. in future speak to those that are there for you about your troubles rather than lashing out unnecessarily and in a childish manner, you're still growin' and still learning kiddo have many years ahead of you to learn bout the mistakes. Just remember if you ask for it people will be there for you.
Yes I know it doesn't make much sense and it seems like i'm contradicting myself but I promise you I meant no harm towards Lame I really didn't it was more to do so with my argument with Scotty about how no one would care If I comitted the act. And yes I know now that there are good people like you present and If I ever need to talk to you I will and I wont lash out Thank you for your support and for your guidance
Thank you dude, though I honestly deserved it to be honest :/ Yes I did and that's why I made this apology thread.
