Drugs are bad, mmk?

Hey guys, I've been reading these forums as an unregistered user up until today. I'd like to get involved in some of the intelligent discussions and debates, as well as having a bit of fun.

I hope it is ok to post about this type of stuff, because I haven't really seen any posts on these types of topics, or maybe I'm just blind.

Up until a few months ago, I was a straight and narrow kind of guy. In college full-time, working a part-time job, trying to support myself while still finishing school and trying to balance my relationship at the same time. I really never even had time to think about drugs at the time. Quickly, I saw my life crumble right before my eyes. It all started with marijuana.

Now, how in the hell does marijuana ruin your life? It just helps you relax, keeps your mind off the negatives in your life, makes you hungry, and makes even the smallest things more enjoyable, right? WRONG.

For me, marijuana was such an amazing "find" at the age of 22 (yes, I was 22 before I even tried marijuana, or even knew what it smelled like really) that I couldn't believe I had gone that long without smoking. It helped me take my mind off the breakup, work drama, school drama, yadda yadda...a little too much. It helped my mind reach places it had never been, honestly. And what I mean by that is that it changed my thought process. Things that use to seem so important, just weren't as important as I had made them out to be. I questioned everything. Why was I going to school? Why was I working a part-time job just to live in a place I didn't even like? Obviously, with me being so new to the smoking community, I naturally started making friends that were smokers. I had a co-worker at the job I was at, who everyone knew as the guy to get weed off of. We became friends and started hanging out. For a month or so, it was just that. Hanging out with new smoker friends who I thought were awesome (probably because I was high the whole time). I'd complained about where I lived one night, and me and a couple buddies discussed all of us getting an apartment together so it would be cheaper for everyone. It really turned out to be more expensive, because all of the money I was "saving" would be getting burned in a bong/bowl/wrap/vaporizer/etc. After about a month of us all living together, the other two roommates had ideas of doing other drugs. Before I smoked weed, I never even thought about doing any kind of hardcore drug. This is where I say marijuana ruined my life. Since I had become a smoker, it had made me so open-minded. I was open to any and all ideas, even trying drugs such as acid, cocaine, shrooms, speed, molly.

Going from marijuana, to the uppers, was a crazy transformation for me. Cocaine could make you feel completely invincible, speed could help you focus, molly could make you the happiest you have ever been in your life, shrooms and acid both were so unique, they could make you see the world differently, whether it be visually or mentally.

At the time I started all of that, addiction was never in my mind. Drugs were helping me. So I thought. How were they helping you may ask? Well If I wanted to relax I could smoke some pot. If I wanted to go out to the club and be the most social I'd ever been and have game like you wouldn't believe, I'd do molly. If I needed help focusing with school work, I'd take speed. It's hard for me to explain what shrooms and acid do to a human mind, but you will never be the same after that. Especially If you have a bad trip.

Eventually, it got to the point where I relied on these drugs for happiness in some way. I felt incomplete when I'd do all those same activities, without the corresponding drug. And by this time, my thought process was so screwed up, I had no idea of what reality was. I could convince myself of the stupidest things, like dropping out of college. I dropped out because I convinced myself that I needed the time off to get my mind right (when really I was just being a lazy ass and needing more free time to hang with my AWESOME FRIENDS). After dropping out, the drug use got way worse as you can imagine. I had so much more free time without going to school, and still only working part-time. That didn't last long at all. I would get so trashed after work some nights, that I'd still be tripping, rolling, stoned at work the next day, leading to me screwing up at work more, which would eventually get me fired.

So here I am. No job. Not in school. Still needing to supply my drug addiction and pay my bills, what could I do? Well, as I mentioned previously, the guy I met at the job was known for selling weed, luckily he was my roommate now. How could I be so LUCKY?! Insert sarcasm here. I started to sell as well. Throughout my drug experience, I met tons of people who were always looking for something to get their "fix", so making sales was easy. I found that I could make wayyyyy more money selling those drugs in a month, than I could've made in about 6 months at my job. And support my own drug addiction. The next thing that happened would change my life...back.

Our supplier got raided by the police. This whole time, the cops never really crossed my mind. My mind was in a different place. Luckily, it was what I needed to help me get back on track. We were the main suppliers in this area at the time(our guy was in a different state) so when we didn't have it, most people didn't. I had a realization of how far I had really fallen and what happened to get me there and I remembered the time I tried marijuana. So, with our supplier down in the dumps, I wasn't able to get my hands on smoke or anything else for that matter, because I was no longer making any money from selling, which left me broke as a joke, thankfully. I moved back in with my parents, even though I am a 22 year old who has lived on his own since 18, it was the best decision I've made in the past 6 months, for sure. Not smoking weed for a bit really helped my mind get back into the right state, the state it was in when I was a college student and working to supply my real life needs, not my drug needs.

All of these decisions were made by me, no one else. I don't blame anyone else, it was all my own stupidity. I wouldn't say I am against marijuana. I just wanted to share my own personal experience and what it led to for >ME<.

I guess I wanted to post this to try and find similar stories and maybe spread my experience around a bit, hoping others can relate. I know it's not the best typed post and I've left out a lot of the little details because it's late and if I told everything I would probably be typing for way longer than the 90 minutes it took me, but if anyone is curious about something, just comment and I'll tell you what happened to the best of my memory.

Thanks for your time!

 

Sorry about your situation man, personally i've never touched anything other than weed and don't plan to, i dont see how people can class it as a bad thing, its helped me out with anxiety and depression and i've had some of the best fun i've had in a while, just chilling with friends watching a movie stoned

 

moderation is important in everything. the fact that you became addicted and dependent shows you have a weak mind. when you smoke, you're supposed to use it as a tool to figure out what you're doing wrong in your sober state. makes notes about things you outta change in your life.

marijuana helped cure my genetic stupidity but it can also suck you into a life of degeneracy if you're not careful. don't trust anyone ever. why would want to live with other people. the goal is the acquire independence.

 

Are you planning on finishing college? The only thing worse than making a bad decision in life is letting it affect your life long after.

 

Awesome read, I read the whole thing. Would you be implying that marijuana is a gateway drug?

 

I'm impressed that you didn't need an external support group or anything else (maybe self-help guide?) to get rid of your addictions. Unless your parents provided emotional/health support?

 

Marijuana didn't ruin your life the array of hard drugs did. Of course weed can have a detrimental effect on someones life, but you'd probably still be in school and working if that's all you did, unless your priorities were messed up.

I'm glad you posted this though. You, along with many others, had a very little idea about what drugs where before they started using them.People who have little knowledge about drugs will be more cautious after reading this story.

Parents and schools won't show you the full picture instead simply preach 'drugs are bad.' without explaining why people do the, what they look like, and exactly how they are bad.

 

Never go full blown retard.

Now you know.

 

Well I was quite hooked on pot for quite a few years. Daily. Now I can't say it ruins your life, but it takes the fun out of it eventually, because all FUN you can think of is pot. I am sober for nearly 3 months now and I feel quite good about myself. Tbh, I wouldn't mind a spliff, but hey...

 

simple fucking rule nobody understands: HAVE RESPECT FOR DRUGS

simple fucking rule nobody understands #2: USE DRUGS MODERATELY NOT CHRONICALLY

no addiction ever under any substance with those two notions.

 

Yep, that's they way to go I guess. Though not everyone has the power to control oneself

 

Some people can't use certain drugs moderately. Like there's no social crack/meth users. Most people can drink in moderation, but if you're an alcoholic you can't really control yourself, and shouldn't drink at all.

 

At least you've learnt from your experiences OP. You could have dug deeper and found yourself in a full blown addiction to harder drugs. I'm glad to hear you've made it through though.

Just a general note to everyone: If you can't keep recreational drug intake in moderation, Don't take any at all.

 

It's easy to let yourself slip into habits. Good on you for recognizing it and getting your shit together.

I still don't think the blanket statement "all drugs are bad" is appropriate. If you're able to use something recreationally without affecting your life, by all means go ahead. It's about self-awareness.

 

Your story was an interesting read.
I'm glad you learnt a lesson yourself from this experience.

 

For anyone that is curious on where I am at right now with my life:

I went today to check on going back to school in the summer, so I could catch back up hopefully. Everything went great, surprisingly. I was really worried on what the outcome would be since I was a complete dipshit and just stopped going to class.

Marijuana is a gateway drug IN MY OPINION. Getting high for the first couple of months was a-ok, but when others that you are just "smoking buddies" with are bringing around Molly, Acid, ETC..You will most likely try it out. I was so wrong about Marijuana and the effects that I could've been talked into trying any drug atleast once. It's more or less "see for yourself" kinda deal at that point.

And I did not have any 3rd party help. I saw where my life was headed with my supplier getting busted and realized being high all the time was not for me, neither was selling drugs.

I honestly can't say that if someone asked me about taking any of those drugs, that I would tell them no....here is why.

It opened my mind so much, and not just about people, but literally I went to a place in my mind that had never been visited and I learned that when people say "think outside of the box", that is exactly what it means. Me, or anyone else I know would not be able to explain exactly what I'm talking about, without sounding like a lunatic. It's just something you'd have to experience.

I really appreciate you guys for taking the time to read and posting positive comments. Keep it coming!

 

This is how i think too.. i guess it really isn't for everyone
Respect drugs

 

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Your experience no way reflects a drug (in this case weed) as a whole. Weed did not ruin your life, you ruined your life. Sorry your life got fucked, but you did it to yourself. I know plenty of people who smoke and continue to function in society w/o getting hooked on anything hard.

Weed is not a gateway drug, the U.S. government even agrees with this. The connections you make buying weed may be another story (providing it is illegal where you are.) Selling harder drugs generally turns a nicer profit for dealers (hint why harder drugs may be pushed.)

 

Thanks for your input Tmoe...

 

Marijuana wasn't a "gateway drug"; you just chose to make friends with people who do a lot of drugs in general.

With reference to cannabis, shrooms, and acid, I completely agree.

You learn something from taking drugs--especially psychedelic drugs (LSD, psilocybin, salvia, MDMA, THC, etc.). But if you want to give life to those experiences, you need to be inspired by them to go out into the world and use them to create something, not so stoned off your ass all day you can't communicate with other people. Drugs are life-giving, but if overused, life-draining.

Compare: "Many billionaires use hallucinogens on a regular basis."
http://money.cnn.com/video/technology/2015/01/25/sex-drugs-silicon-valley-psychedelics.cnnmoney