Im really lost guys.

I don't know what to do with my life. I take drugs often now. DXM mainly in the past month. All I look forward to is doing more drugs, because everything else just isn't fun. I live in Alaska, so I guess it's pretty normal compared to other places in the US. I just feel like life is really shitty, and nothing makes me happy aside from.. Well drugs. I know you guys can't really help me, but I just feel like I need to talk about it.

 

Drugs will just mess it up even more and make you dislike it even more. Seek help in any form to quit taking them and find a release you can turn to when you feel shitty.

 

Alaska has the highest suicide rate and drug use in the United States. You should try checking into a rehabilitation center or telling your family relatives about your use. They are your family and would want to help you.

 

Find alternatives. When thinking about doing a drug, go do something else. Such as go on a walk, lift some weights, drink a glass of water, etc. Something that takes your mind off it.

Surround yourself with people that'll hold yourself accountable. You've taken a major step by admitting that you need to stop/have a problem with drugs. You could try out rehab but that's not always the answer.

 

Stickly,

Refer to my thread here, pal: http://www.sythe.org/personal-support/1763686-lost-loss-my-best-friend.html

I'm just going to point out that I recently lost my best friend due to an overdose.. I don't want to get too deep into his death, but he was on some prescription and heavy drugs. Please, mate.. think about your close family and friends as you seriously don't understand what sort of impact you will have on everyone. Don't let it be too late to realise drugs are never the answer..

Regards.

 

That's the thing though, I have nothing else to turn to. Previously I made a thread about how life is just boring. I still feel the same way, I can't find any hobbies that interest me. Drugs are literally all I want to do and that's a fucking problem.

Yes, being in this state alone doesn't help. A ton of my friends and just people around me are druggies and/or depressed. I'm 17 and my parents probably wouldn't take me seriously if I tried to talk to them about anything.. I really don't wanna fuck up my life more than it is, but at this rate I'm not sure what's going to happen.

As I said previously, there aren't alternatives for me to turn to.. Not people to help me really, otherwise I don't think I'd be posting here.

I'm sorry about your pal. I've lost a few friends in the past couple years to drugs/suicide. It's really tough on me, and that may be something adding on to me doing it honestly. Currently, I've just not been in a very good time. Family trouble, relationships are all whack, school is fucked, and I'm just never in a good mood unless I'm doing drugs.

 

Stickly, i have some pretty "fucked up" mates but i love them, and in my eyes they're the best friends ill ever have.

You know how your parents or grandparents would always tell you "i used to have this friend when i was young... etc" well im certain ill be telling my kids about these mates.

let me tell you about A. A is a good guy, mentally hes ruined but hes a good guy and i know if it came down to it he would do anything for me. not alot of people can say they have mates that would litterally do anything for them in a pinch. society sees him as a drug fucked tradie but i just see him as my best mate and the dude who always has buds and pills.

before A and i started hanging out, he tried to kill himself 3 times and when i asked him he litterally said " i dont know man, i just feel like shit'

Do you really think he felt like shit on that many drugs? impossible. Ecstacy isnt called ecstacy because it makes you feel like shit man. and DMX and DMT arent scary drugs, they litterally make you dream of things that your subconsious wants to do. and when A and i sit down on my couch and smoke a Q ill be FUCKED if i can even get up and make a nuttella and icecream sandwich let alone try and kill myself..

Just because one person thinks that drugs are soley negative and all drug users/abusers should feel like the scum of the earth, doesnt make it so. BUT in the same sense dont let yourself use your drug habbits to bring yourself down.

You're only 17 like what the fuck could you have hoped to achieve, i didnt even get laid til i was 18 for fuck sake? wakeup in the morning and do what you have to do to keep yourself in a positive headspace. if the only responsibilites you have is to make your bed then make the shit out of it, double drop and then sleep in it.

life is boring because LIFE IS BORING. So make it fun, have ambitions and push yourself but at the same time live within your means and your age bracket.

 

Nothing wrong with drugs as long as you are in control. I'm in a similar situation where from being the definition of straight edge a year ago to in the past 6 months having smoked weed almost everyday, rolled on MDMA more than I can count, tripped on LSD 5 times and occasionally take a xanax to sleep.

I think that everything's all good as long as you're not over doing it people underestimate how much how you feel tells you. If you're feeling okay you probably are okay. If you're feeling like shit or you're not having fun then take a break, if you can't then you need to quit.

My general rule is to avoid addictive and permanently damaging substances. Currently 1 month sober , although I don't plan on permanently giving up drugs. Life is the journey not the destination.