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I've kept all my emotions bottled up for years.
I have no one in my life I can talk to about problems.
My own dad makes fun of me. I know he has thought of me as a loser for years.
When I look back on memorys they feel fake, like it was something I imagined.
My mom yells at me for the littlest mistake. I never yell back at her, I always keep calm.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost.