Good Friend Passed Away and I Need Help

Hey fellas, thank you for viewing my thread.

I'll re-introduce myself as I recently registered so not many of you have seen me around, my name is Sam and I am from the United States. I currently reside in Dubai (United Arab Emirates) and I am 15 years old.

A good friend of mine whose name is Alex recently committed suicide. (And by recently I mean fucking Two hours ago) and I'm fucking wrecked man. I can't pull myself fucking together. I have no idea why he has done it because he had shown NO signals or symptoms of depression.

We first met around Three months ago, I was selling Dokha to some guys at a party and he tried to take some without paying. I punched him in the nose and broke it and he had to visit the hospital. Somehow we became really close.

What the fuck should I do? I'm seeing the doctor now and I think I broke my damn knuckle punching some fucking wall.

Please give me something to go on, I justtt can'tman. fuck

YThanks you,

Uncle Sam ENterprises

 

You should talk to your parents about it or someone close to you. I'm sorry to hear this.

 

Sorry for your loss man, terrible to hear
Only time heals these kind of wounds.
Don't hide it, talk about it, even this fresh, talk to some people close to you, parents, family, best friends whomever.

It will get better if you do, trust me, I know.

 

A friend of mine killed himself 10 months ago, it was so sudden and unexpected.

Let it out and don't deny your natural feelings. What you're feeling is totally natural. You feel helpless, empty, to blame, even. Just let it take it's course and grieve.

Denial & isolation is the first stage of grief. It's important you and your friends all stick together. Our entire class turned up for college the day after, hours after we knew about it (even his girlfriend) - we consoled each other and got everyone to come in because we knew it'd be rough being at home on your own with parents who weren't having the same feelings. Surround yourself with friends.

Anger follows, then bargaining "if only I/we had...". It's not your fault. When someone does something as extreme as suicide, not even your best of help could've changed their mind, imo. Don't blame yourself or anyone else.

Now, next, is when help should be sought. You'll feel depression. You'll think of it almost always, or suddenly be reminded and have a major mood swing. Seeking help if needed is extremely important. Go to a counsellor or school/college/uni support staff if you go.

Lastly, acceptance. It takes a long time, or sometimes never happens. But letting out your emotions, seeking help and surrounding yourself with a support network is vital to get to this stage. I think I'm almost there myself.

Keep strong buddy, hit me up on Skype if you feel you want/need to.

 

I'm really sorry to hear that man.

As others said, time heals all wounds. For now, you're going to be angry and emotional which you need to embrace. Talk about it, don't keep it bottled up. Talk to your parents, friends, counselors, anybody you really can. Getting the feelings off your chest will do a great deal.

If you ever need someone to talk to or anything, feel free to PM me or ask for my skype. Stay strong man.