This isn't a topic of any fear I have with death. I've found peace with it and I've learned to accept it. This is about death of people close to me. A kid in my home room died of a stroke last year and I didn't feel anything. Nothing. Nothing at all. A kid I talked with all the time, gone. And I didn't feel a thing, even to this day I feel nothing. At the beginning of summer my dog died. A dog I grew up with ever since I could walk. I helped drag her body to the vet and I felt nothing. This is something I'm scared off. Am I just that insensitive? Am I that much of an asshole? Or am I rejecting my feelings and trying to hide them. Or trying to not develop them in the first place? I've only cried once over a death. And that was in the novel "the outsiders" and in the movie as well. I feel like I've been blessed with a curse. I'm just not sure what to think of it.
Curse? More like psychopathy. Live a good life and do what you got to do, but strategically you can go much further in this world without having to harm your fellow creature. Knowing someone and not having any emotion attachment to them is extremely strange. Feeling "nothing" as you put it seems extremely retarded to me. reenact their lives in your mind and try to feel the implications of his death as if it were your(very important) life. ex. I felt "nothing" for the Newtown shooting but I have empathy and sympathy for those who had lost something that you and I could never understand.
I wouldn't go as far as saying that Divine_God.. I think this is natural, some people are really sensitive like myself, I cried like a little baby for hours over my dogs death.. and others like my sister didn't cry at all and just held it all back it's your natural way of dealing with things, don't think you're an asshole, and don't be scared of it.
I feel the same way, I feel the understanding the inevitability of death is a good thing because it helps you move on. It doesn't mean you don't miss the deceased, it just means that you are able to recognize the life cycle and deal with it well.
Death is a part of life you should not fear it. Who is to say that there is not a life after death of where we go after we die. Live for the day not for death if you are religious have faith, have fun. I know a load of people who think this way there is nothing wrong with it you just have to realize that its what were here for.
I feel the same like you sometimes its like it doesn't bother me I dont know why this happens though its really weird.
Now I do get freaked out about the way I am going to die now the thought of that makes me shit myself.
How lol, I just said it doesn't bother me if someone dies sometimes because its life you have to deal with it you cannot just live your rest of your life thinking about it
Mate, This may be because you understand it was there time and you know that it was there time to die, You may going through some shock and don't feel much emotions due to it. Or you just a very strong person
My grandfather died, I Felt the same way I wasn't crazy though we just weren't close. But, in your situation you were probably just hiding your emotions.
Denial is a part of grief, it may sink in when you think of someone because you hear a song, or see something on TV and you'll realise they're actually gone, that's when it hurts most. I wouldn't worry about it as such.
When my grandpa died this year he really suffered, and I mean he suffered until he took his last breathe and for two solid months it was torture for him and everyone else who had to see him this way. We all took turns staying with him at the hospital up until his final hours and everyone in my family dealt with the pain of losing him differently. Some cried, some were silent and some were very angry at god. Not everyone deals with death the same, you may not feel anything at all and not cry today or tomorrow and that's okay you don't need to, this doesn't make you a terrible person it just makes you human.
I don't believe everybody has the same set of emotions. I also think it is fucking stupid that there is an expected reaction to a tragic or major event. Also, I can understand the dog thing. They're animals to me. It would be no different to see a dead dog than a dead raccoon or squirrel. The friend situation is also no big deal. You were young and he wasn't necessarily a best friend, just someone you saw all the time. Just recently someone I had known since childhood passed away. I didn't feel a thing.
