Depressed, Empty..

So, hi i guess. For the people that know about me having a break from sythe. I'm not back yet, I just need some help honestly.. I'm not feeling well in any aspect of life at all and i tought focussing on my irl and leaving sythe would help. Which it did, for a while. I'm now more depressed then ever and find myself wondering what to do, as in what to do in life. My school goes bad. The girl i love doesn't even care about me at all, at home i just sit and do nothing and i just don't get it all anymore. I feel tired, empty all day long and i just can't find the motivation to get up in the morning and start a new day. On the weekends i find myself going to sleep early and staying in bed as long as possible just so the days go by quicker. I don't have the feeling of being needed anywhere and i feel like i have nothing to gain/offer anything. Even in graphics i'm empty. No inspiration, no ideas. I used to be full of them, i used to love drawing etc. Now i just want nothing.. I'm just feeling so so sad all the time and honestly, i'm crying inside every single second of the day. I try to hide it, i preted hyper active and happy at school so no-one notices. I'm not even sure why i'm posting this here. I just need help..

 

Depression is normal. It's just something you need to learn from. For some it's worse and in that case meds would be appropriate.

(if you want to join the military stay away from the doctor)

For me i needed to find something that made me happy, something that i knew would turn my mood around. maybe not for the whole day but for a while so i would feel better and do something.

Don't let it control your life, make a change, do something new. Sports? Acting? Hobbies? find something you enjoy, go out side, ride a bike, fly a kite. Activity releases endorphins which help brighten you mood.

 

I was in your exact position, and I know you can't just snap out of the way you're feeling because you try and try and try and you honestly just can't. Me and my ex broke up and I tried to talk to him again but he just shrugged me off and stopped caring which is the same as the girl you love not caring.

You really do need to keep motivating yourself though, especially with school and keep your focus off anything that puts you in that mood, I know I can't just tell you to snap out of it because I know it's not that simple. Graphics are something that make you happy I'm assuming, spend more time and focus on them, tell yourself each day you're going to make a better and better graphic. I did that with my schooling and I'm kind of getting better, it doesn't happen over night but I keep telling myself to go to school everyday, put 100% effort in and at the end I'll actually be happy with myself, my future will go the way I want it. There's nothing wrong with sleeping in some days but apparently sleeping for TOO long can actually put you in a even worse state of mind because I know that's what I did on the weekends I'd just want to sleep and not wake up because I had nothing to wake up for, you need to find things to wake up for, to strive for.

 

Lucas, when I get back home I'll send you a message, cheer up buddy. Remember there's a few of us always here for you, you know who we are. I went through something similar to what you did when my gran died, I literally hibernated for a month or so. Think positive.

 

If you ever need someone to talk to i'm here for you man. My only advise to you is not to let a girl control what you feel or do or anyone for that matter. I know its easier said then done but i'm here for you man if you want to pm or talk through skype or even voice chat through psn. You just need to hang out with some good friends and laugh, enjoy life. It's hard man i recently hit some troubles because of identity issues, i changed my name because i want to be an actor but i felt bad because my parents were supportive but they were kinda like feeling weird so im changing it back the thing is it costed money and time so i guess everyones going through issues but the point of me saying all that was too let you know your not alone. Pm me if you want to talk or anything man, i'm here for you bro.

 

Also, when i was in 9th grade i was very depressed man, even to the point that i contemplated suicide to a very serious degree, i told my mom i was going for a walk and left all my stuff including my phone. I just though to myself i'd stick it out and it got better man. Life gets better but theres bumps which feel like mountains but it's about how much you could handle which makes you feel better. Ive gone through hard depression man but i promise you things will get better, life is tough but its the happy moments which make it enjoyable. Please pm me when you have chance.

 

Hey lucas bud, Skype me when you get a minute ey.

It happens to us all at some point, I was depressed for years and am still on anti-depressants as well as other things. I'll talk you through it all on Skype though

Stay strong bro <3

 

Thanks mate, and all of you. It's all so messed up. Skype me soon man.

 

I see you live in Belgium, so do I. I wouldn't mind talking to you on MSN if it means anything to you at all.

 

lvl 75 def pm me your private skype, I am always there for you we can talk

 

main thing that at least helped me is to talk to someone about it, which you are doing. Also, try new things even if you have to force yourself. start talking to new people and different people that you might not of hung out with before reexamine your life so you can figure out what is making you feel that way, it could just be a situational thing. As far as the girl goes just try not to let it bother you I know its hard. I have liked a lot of girls who did not like me back so i know were you coming from. Have you told her how you feel?

 

My piece of advice:

If the weather is nice, go find a place that is as green as possible in terms of plants, trees and stuff and watch the surrounding nature. Try to analyze it, understand it.

I've been where you are now, the best friend when I was around 8 years old was a tree near by my house, I've spent countless hours talking with it and it helped a lot, that might sound strange, but I didn't have any friends in school and I needed someone, so I found a tree.

Then when I was around 13-14, I was depressed to the point of suicidal thoughts, but the way I went through it was to step outside the routine, go to the park, go to some place that looks hidden enough to just sit alone and enjoy the surrounding nature, birds, flowers, trees, insects, everything..

 

Start lifting. Do it for yourself, not anyone else.

I went through some depression myself and lifting really helped bring me out of it and turn my life around.

 

True, man i literally got the size i am now because of my self-hatred and depression

 

Maybe look into something where you're around other people like sports? I personally love to go outside and just practice soccer whenever i'm bored or depressed. Don't worry hamster qt i'm here for u. PM me if u wanna talk.

 

Personally, this is one of the feelings I have been through myself. I am almost certain on what your problem is: I think the only solution problem is to find something you ARE good at, and therefore you are able to give yourself (and possibly gain from others) positive, appriciative feedbacks.

By the things you wrote, I'm guessing your main source of depression and empty feeling is that you are not succeeding in territories of life, which you are striving to (the girl you like doesn't care about you, you are doing bad in school).

If you are able to find something that you are successful in, you can get a better picture of how to continue in life and also get a confidence boost, along with a momentum that carry you on, day by day.

If you feel what I wrote is true for you, add my skype (kfjjjdst.sythe) because I'm quite sure I was in the same situation as you are feeling in right now, and if I'm correct, I could help you heaps.

 

I'd like to thank you all for the good care and motivation. It's not like alot has changed but i've started going to the gym for three times a week and i'll have to focus on school now. We'll see how it goes. Thanks guys.

 

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