My Life.

Well I just want to start off by saying Hello. Im a member of Dj Forum but they really don't have a good support team so I decided to take my problem here.

What I have been going through, throughout the last 2-3 years have been some of the worst in my short lived life so far. Well ill start it off here:

Im Johnathan im 24, I have no kids and currently not in college. I still live with my parents and I don't know if Im gay, straight or Bisexual. I started going through these things whenever I was 20, I started seeing guys in a diffrent way, i have always dated girls but I never thought I feeling got the good feeling when having sex with them, so I tried the other sex. Me being 20 at the time I was kinda interested in guys around the ages of 30-37 in which most of them were attracted to me because I was young and fresh into the fish game or so they call it. Well about a year after I met and had sex with the first guy, I started feeling the urge to just have sex, sex, sex. Then i just started to love guys, the only bad thing is not im so into this girl and she does not know of my past. I feel that I love her but im not exited about our sex nore do I find it fun or does it feel good. I really dont know whats wrong with me. I always have dreams about having a family and getting married but I think im in love with men.
Another problem i am having is there is this one guy, Im actually talking to right now, he is 39 handsome man and he really likes me but I have a girl that i really like as i said earlier. He really takes me places shows me a good time and the sex is amazing. He also spends so much $$$ on me but I dont think im in love with him, I think im in love with the things he does for me and what he brings to my life, he has 2 kids and I love them also, but I know my feeling lye with this girl i talk to.
There is just so many things going through my head right now I dont know what to do. My parents really dis own me because I have had sex with many men although I dont have a name for myself because I stay classy and I keep my business to myself but I feel like im a bad person, I get down on myself because Im just so confused.
If anyone can feel what Im going through and give me some advise not really for my life but just some thoughts and stories of what they have been through and how they triumphed over there battles i would really love that. Maybe I can take some knowledge from other and apply it to my life.

Thanks In advance.

 

I can kinda see where your comming from I used to be in the same boat but its so late at night ill be sure to get to this in the AM

 

Hello sir, in my opinion you should start off by telling the girl the truth about your sexual status, I believe it would make yourself feel a bit better.

Regarding your problem I think you're still young and is just experimenting with sex. Just to let you know, it won't be like this forever. There will be a moment in which you will eventually decide whether you like men or women, but that will be something personal that will come from your heart. I must tell you that you should never cheat on someone, if you're dating this girl then stay with her. Take mature decisions and no matter how much you like this guy dont cheat the girl as she doesnt deserve it.

Hope this helps, just post again and I will try to give you more advice

 

You prefer emotional relationships with women and sexual with men it seems like. This isn't a simple thing, so I actually recommend you go to see a therapist to explain the situation.

 

Like the other guy said, I recommend a therapist, you are in a tough spot, and also come on man, the other guy is 39, you are 24, you can find something better.

 

It only seems like you prefer the emotional relationships with woman because thats what socieity and your family has brainwashed you into, if you feel better with the man then be with the man but definitely tell the girl and stop leading her on.

 

WOW. Very complicated situation sounds like me whenever I was 18 or 19, well anyways man you cant let your emotions get in the way or your sexual orientations, what ya gotta do is see which one actually satisfies you in the opposite way. Meaning you have to weigh whats happening in your life, what a woman can do for you that a man cant and vise-versa. Anyways what I did was just choose, I love having sex with men, but women just temp me so much because there sexy but I know where my sex drive lies. Its just whatever you want to do.
Whenever you think of things like having a family and all that basically its pretty much brainwashed into your head because of the past. Everyone thinks of women being with men and as the same the opposite way, but alot of people are open minded so, dont base your decision off having a family because families are obtainable being gay. Also some of the decisions you are going to have to make are going to be very difficult your going to feel like you dont have any friends but you have to keep on fighting for what you believe in SISTA, anyways man it seems like you have your head pretty screwed on and it seems like you know what you want but ultimately playing both parts are never gonna satisfy you.
There might also come a time where you just actually start just having sex with men and losing all feelings with women, well I know that happen to me for a bit, I actually became something like a man whore lol hahahah wow made myself laugh lol'ed, but anyways its your life and its your decisions, living this life you have to be like " fuck what he/she thinks ima do me !!" and just do it you have 1 life and you better fuck loads of men in it.....

anywhoooo. ... (tatatata) cheers mate.

@OP your gonna get thru this pm me for more advise, well thats whenever you register lol.