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Iam crying as I type this I'm very depressed and suicidal. The pain I have is too deep I don't know what to do. I'm resorting to hurting my self.

I have no friends and a lot if pressure from my family I just can't take it

My girl friend of four years left me she was my life and I fear she lost her feelings for me

In a way it's my fault I stopped paying attention to her and she resorted to being cold with me and drugs

I dislike her two friends the one that gives her drugs and she chose them over me
She has being going to parties behind my back

I'm so depressed and feel so bad

I feel betrayed she's my life I love her but what do I do please some one help me I want her back

I just want her back

 

Listen, I know I dont know you, but I couldnt stop myself from commenting on this, cause I've been there. I know what this is like. Putting YOUR life on the line is not the way to handle this. First off, get rid of these useless things and persons, Trust me i was Depressed for YEARS. There comes a point in your life when you have to say "Im done with feeling sad, I wanna feel good about myself." If you feel guilty or upset about something deal with it the best way you can and if it doesn't get resolved at least you did your part. I know it may be hard for you to take something like a meaningful relationship lightly, but try to at least get what happened off of your mind and go treat yourself to something nice. I'd suggest taking up some good practices that YOU like, and even if your unsure about it...try it. If you dont like it, move onto something else, just make sure it's something YOU enjoy. Example: Try yoga...if it works cool, if it doesnt try meditating in a forest or park, running, taking an art class.You never know. What worked for me was actually more focused on school. Point is, you're over stressed by life not going the right way, but when life gives you lemons, make orange juice and amaze everyone on how you did it. YOU can make that change by doing fun things, and the more fun things you do the happier you'll be, and you'll be too busy having fun to deal with bad people. My last word of advice is to take baby steps but to push yourself to move forward. Start by taking an hour to do whatever you fancy by yourself. I hope this helped you. Goodluck out there bro.

 

I also want to add that her doing drugs really hurts and her drinking even more

I come from a family with alcohol problem and drinkers just disghuist me.
Lived with my mom and brother who drink a lot and have a lot if problems so I moved in with my dad but I have to run the family business witch is too much pressure Iam just so soffucated

I have no friends because of an x gf that turned them all against me

Me meeting my new gf after having to move schools have me hope

I can't loose that hope

 

My life sucks so hard

I have no time to myself I work 6 days a week for 10 hours a day if not I'm kicked out

I can't go back to my drunk mom

I have no friends to turn to

This is why she left be

I have no where to go

I have no one to talk to about this

I feel so alone Imt was us against the world and now I must face it alone

Iam so scared
I want this pain to go away

Please just what do I do

Iam not use to being alone

Minutes feel like hours