I feel like killing myself

Hey guys... I just want some help... I have been feeling suicidal for the past year.. I get bullied all the time at my new school. I just moved and lost my best friend that I had for 9 years(and I'm 13). I get cyber bullied, i don't look very good, i'm short and everything. I don't get to eat a lot and I feel as if life has lost meaning... i get 3-4 hours of sleep a night.. somone please help

 

http://sythe.org/showthread.php?t=1293734

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honestly ive been there as well but not because of the friends or anything but because i was just pissed off at the family and things like that

if you ever wanna talk though

[email protected]

 

Life has lost its meaning at 13? You have your life ahead of you, all those nights partying/drinking and having fun. So maybe, life isn't perfect atm, but ask yourself is life ever perfect? Life is never perfect. You have to fight for what you believe in and what you wanna be.

I agree with Stui on this thread - http://sythe.org/showthread.php?t=1293734

Read it and try accomplish some of them on it.

Friends can always be replaced, yes I know its hard but life goes on!



Use that as motivation if you can :/

If you wanna talk, ill be on for a few more hours..

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Really think about the things you enjoy in life, think about your family and maybe speak to them, if you have a councillor at school speak to them, do something about it, the more you leave it the worse it will get.

 

You know what to do , just hit me up on msn.

 

http://sythe.org/showthread.php?t=1293734
http://sythe.org/showthread.php?t=1306788

Death is never the answer.

 

What you're experiencing now in life is only temporary,
Think about the devastation and heartbreak you'd put your family through,
Don't be ignorant, think logically,
Theirs so much more too life then what you think,
You're young and have a lot too learn,
Wasting your life is a sin.

 

Don't do it, it's not worth it, no matter how bad you think life is.
Life is great and it will get better sooner or later, maybes with someone who loves you or maybe youll get a great job.

Why end your life so early when you could devote a few years to school, get a great job, and go live in new york or something, look at the possibilities. Your life may not be as good as you want it right now, and it wont be as good as you want it in college or university, but once your done all of that, your life is going to boom into a great thing, so stop worrying.

ALSO
go to your psychiatrist and ask them for some medication, they will probably prescribe you with zoloft or something. It does help.

 

By your signature you enjoy runescape right? You can't do that whilst your not here, you can't do anything. So what if not everybody likes runescape, you do and you go play it as much as you want if you enjoy it.

You're told you need to do this and that you need to that to become successful and 'fit in'

Fuck it, do what you want and enjoy it - if school is putting you off life then do something about it, tell your parents you want to be home schooled or just beg to move schools - talk to them and do whatever you can to enjoy it and enjoy the results it gives you. School educates you for life, what's the point of being educated for something you currently don't want to be part of?

Find something you do want to be a part of, run with it and I wish you the best of luck with whatever life throws at you - suicide is never the answer. I'd say it's the easy way out, but nobody knows where you going so I'd never suggest that is the case.

 

Please don't talk to your friends or something to help you.

 

Dude I can't even tell you how much I'm feeling for you at the moment.

I don't know if you have (hopefully) gotten better in the past few hours but man, I hope you do. I know life is a bitch and shit is rough, but it will ALWAYS get better. I was right there where you are, just 2 years ago, and hell I'm still there in some ways. I know exactly what it's like coming to a new school, I was at a school for 5 years then thrown into private school and it was COMPLETELY different. I didn't know anybody, my life style was different, but I adapted. Do what is comfortable, you may need to put on an act (it is natural for kids in middle school and high school to lie and fake things to fit in with the rest of society, it's just human nature)

As for your looks, dude don't tell yourself that. First off, your young so looks can change as you grow and develop. You might be short but you are young, like I said, and you could grow 3 inches in the next 2 months. I have a friend who was always the short kid and we always messed with him about it, now he's 6'4" and we all make jokes about when he was short. Trust me, height is not an issue Back to your looks, I'm not going to say "looks don't matter" because people say that all of the time and we all know it's not true. However, that doesn't mean you should let it bring you down dog! I used to have a SHITLOAD, I mean a TON, of Acne, now I've been on medicine and it is almost all gone. My hair used to be a tangled mess and now I found a hair style that I don't have to put much work into and looks great. Just find out what works for you and fix it up. If your physical looks themselves are bad, meaning your just ugly by nature, then don't even fret it man! Like I used to be mad at myself because my ears are big and my nose is weird looking but now I just said "Fuck it, why let this bother me? I can't change it so why bother being upset?" You can apply that to a lot of things, but I don't suggest you do for too many things or you will begin to care about nothing.

About your friend... Man, I'm sorry. I've lost too many friends to too many different things and the best solution is to just not think about it. I'm not going to ask how you lost your friend, I'm just simply going to leave it at I'm sorry and you WILL find a new friend. Correction, friends. You will make them, and they will support you. Hell, I already feel kind of like your friend, I want to be one for you.

If you have problems with eating or sleeping, tell somebody. Tell anybody that you know in real life, your teacher, your parents, I mean even tell like a janitor or something. If you only feel comfortable talking to somebody you know, find another kid in your grade who needs help, then help each other. If you are having problems sleeping, you can see a doctor and they will prescribe medication. You can get meds for your eating as well, and even depression medication.

If your getting cyber bullied, well just know that anybody who tries to put you down is most likely a loser or is going through issues themselves. If you have a problem on here, tell a Mod and they will shut the kid up. If all else fails, talk to me, I'll tell the guy to get the fuck out of here.

As to life losing meaning... I know it's easy to think that, that was what I was feeling a couple years ago. Especially because at the time I was having waves of Religious confusion and I had problems believing there really was a God. I'm not going to talk about myself nor am I going to preach about it, but there is more to life than a Heaven and God, that is for sure (THIS IS NOT MEANT TO START ANY RELIGIOUS ARGUMENTS).

It WILL get better. I have to go right now, but here is my email/MSN:
[email protected]

Email me, message me, do whatever you can to get help. If you don't want to talk to me that's fine too, I just want you to know that I'm here to talk to if you want, as well as pretty much everybody on this thread.

You will get help. Things WILL get better, I believe in you. Life goes on, and it gets better. There will be rough spots but you will make it through.

Good luck man, much love. You aren't alone

 

Dude, you are better than all the bullies.

You say that you do not look. Who said that, you, someone else? Who has the right to say who does look good enough and who does not? Just be yourself and remember that you are good enough to live and if you will work enough you will succeed more than the others who teased you.

 

This is me in real life, I get made fun of a lot.today people took my gloves and whiped their asses with them. I live in 30 degree weather. I am done with this.

 

Listen man, talk to me. Come into MSN and chat me dog. It's all good it will get better.

We can talk it out, trust me.

And about those kids, fuck 'em. Kids do things because they want attention from other people.

And to your picture, dude you look fine - in fact you look like a good healthy kid and you will be a looker when your older

 

Dude your a beast (cool) you look great! Alot better then me and the people I know. I'm your age I know how it feels. Wait a month you'll feel better.

Have you ever heard of karma? What comes are goes around, they'll get what they deserve!

 

You need to stand up for yourself. You can't get the respect of your peers if you don't respect yourself. If kids are being assholes to you, do something. If you're unhappy, change it. Switch school, talk to the principal, school therapist etc. If you're being bullied, just talk to someone. Fuck those kids. Why do you think you aren't good looking? Why do you think you're worthless? In the words of Malcolm X "Who taught you to hate yourself?" Don't look for acceptance. Disregard the other kids, do things for yourself. Make your lifestyle self fulfilling.



tl;dr ask the kids to stop, and if they don't, switch school/get them in trouble


:edit: I'd be careful to mention that you're feeling suicidal. They might send you away to some crackpot christian right boarding school full of ritalin slaves.

 

Yea dude, there is always a solution, and things will always get better, suicide is never the option

Music is an outlet, in that sense it is beautiful. This may sound crazy but do this. Find a song that makes you sad, maybe you can relate or maybe it's just a sad song. Put it on, and picture the artist with you (Not literally but picture the artist experiencing what you are) Now cry. Yes that's right, cry, let it out, let out everything that's been holding you down and making you feel bad, feel comforted by the music, you will feel every emotion in your body. When you are all cried out (It will come whether you think so or not), put on a happy song. Pick a song that you can either dance to or sing to or a song that makes simply you happy. Listen until you just fall asleep. I'm not going to get scientific but the crying is proven to make you feel better, and it will also make you very tired.

And yes, KARMA. Those kids, the ones who think they are so much better, will probably not get anywhere near as far as you will in life. If you keep your head up and keep a good attitude, you will go miles farther than they will. It is likely that many of them will struggle with finding women, or staying in relationships that last enough to make a family. Girls at your age may still hang out with the Bully's, but there comes a time when they get sick of it and they head for the sensitive guys who actually care about the women.

Also - SHOOT FOR COLLEGE. College is going to be your safe haven, and although it is 4 years off, it is going to be possibly the greatest time of your life. Not only because you will be in College (I mean hey its College dude!), but because you will find a group to lock into. There are roughly 1000 people in every year at college, you'll find plenty of people to hang out with who will care about you and take care of you. If things don't get better by then, grit your teeth, eat lots of ice cream, and don't worry about it! Lots of stress is caused by - guess what - STRESS. It builds up and gets worse and worse, you can't be so hard on yourself. You aren't an ugly kid at ALL, you're a nice looking kid and you have to much ahead of you to end it. You'd be really successful with the ladies in a year or so if you just get a little swagger (Yes that is a real word and I used it LOL) in your step and lighten up! You're a kid, enjoy childhood.

Yes, do NOT mention your suicidal thoughts, it is kind of a new thing to adults and they'll put you in a padded cell. Nah just kidding, but they would overreact terribly.

He does have a point on the fact of sticking up for yourself. It is MUCH easier said than done, I know just how it is. In fact the only way I got higher in my social status was by teasing myself, admitting to my flaws, making fun out of a situation that couldn't be dealt with. I don't suggest that honestly but it works for some people. (It's tough now because I'm expected to be funny ALWAYS and I am very rarely taken seriously ) Back on topic; do what ever you can to stick up to them. Don't try insulting them, they love that, if they bring violence upon you send it back. If they make fun of you, make fun of something you know will choke them up (Actually, only do this if you are planning for a fight, because when Bully's get stuck in these types of situations they tend to react with violence)

But like I've said, THINGS GET BETTER. Those kids will eventually either get bored or another kid will rat them out. It always happens, at one point in Highschool one of the Upper Classmen bully-figures gets expelled and everything is very light for a month or 2. That will happen and you'll get a nice break (Same goes for Middle school)

Lots of love from everybody here at Scythe. Contact me if you need it

 

Adding on to what ^they said, confidence is crucial to preventing bullying. It's very easy for people to target you if you look like an easy target. Walk with confidence and keep a good attitude.

Also, another thing to remember is that there are always people who have it tougher than you do, and they get by everyday through sheer inner strength force of will; survival is their muse, and each struggle they overcome strengthens them in both the mind and spirit.

 

Oh so it's my fault now. fuck this i'm doing it. cya all in hell

 

NOOOO bro PLEASE DONT..

YOU HAVE YOUR WHOLE LIFE INFRONT OF YOU.

DONT BROOO DONT !!