Confused about my ex!!

hey guys and gals,
i thought this would be the perfect place to get a bit of advice and help considering the situation i'm in with my ex girlfriend atm.

we broke up about 3 months ago, and it was a pretty sketchy break up. few things i regret doing, few things she regrets doing. i don't really want to explain everything about our relationship and break up because i'll be here typing for ages so ill just say a few things...

How we broke up​

we broke up because we were going through a bit of a rough patch, my parents didn't really like her, and hers didn't really like mine. we were having sex, and me being 16 and her being 15 in australia this is illegal. her and her mum had a dnm and she told her mum and dad and they werent to impressed.

then we got into a fight and just called it quits, a day later she was talking to a new guy just to piss me off, so i done the same, looking back, i wish i just smiled and didn't give her a reaction. but we all make mistakes heh. we had a few break ups during our 5 month relationship, but this time it really felt like it was over. i was ok for a while, then i had a bit of a breakdown and a lot of tears sadness ect.

i found it hard going to school with her aswell, but we both managed alright, just a hello and how you going ect. anyway, after school ends for the year, we were just friends, and quite happy, we would still joke about stuff. then we didnt talk for about a week and we both missed each other a lot, so we had to talk, whilst also talking to other people.

then a girl that lives near me started talking to me, one of my friends sisters, shes a really nice girl and a lot of fun. anyway, after a month of just being friends and not really doing anything "extreme" with other girls, we stopped talking. 2 weeks ago we starting talking again, and we were getting really into it and missing each other a lot, and said we love each other ect ect..

we talk for a week, then one night she keeps telling me she wants to have sex with this guy, i don't know whether its to piss me off or because she actually wanted to, but she was pretty keen on it. so i told her i done everything except for sex with the girl that lives near me. she was off it at me, then in the morning she texted me saying its ok. so i was like sweet all good. then randomly she jsut doenst talk to me, so i message her on facebook but no response? is this because she was upset? angry? confused?

she hasnt talked to me for the whole week, until tonight i message her on facebook and she talks to me telling me about this new guy, im happy for her, i really am, but i don't understand why she has to tell me all this. during the week, i had sex with this girl that i have been talking to, and i dont know how my ex will handle it.. i have feelings for her still, but maybe thats just because she was a first love? i enjoyed being in a relationship, i learnt a lot and in a way im happy we did break up, for me to realise and experience what its like to lose someone you really loved.

im not fully over her, part of me still really loves her, and i kind of get upset hearing about her and other guys, but it doesnt really phase me as much as i thought it would. i think its one of those things where id prefer to date her later in life.. but im jsut really confused at the moment. i think about her a fair bit, but not as much as i used to. i don't want her back, but what confuses me is how a girl that i met 18 months ago has always liked me but i never really took notice of her, then i fell in love with her. i always told her i didn't want a girlfriend, but then i just started falling for her. and she fucked me over, big time.

she isnt the most attractive girl, and my friends gave me a lot of shit for dating her, joking of course, i stuck up for her, but it just didnt stop so i ignored them. i miss her more as a friend, and ive told her that, but i dont really know what to do from here, im confused. i talk to a fair few other girls, but it just doesnt feel the same, and when i had sex, it felt different. it physically felt a lot better, but emotionally it was very different. i know my ex still has a thing for me, and part of me wants things back how they were, but part of me doesn't want to go through all the crap again.

i'd love any advice at all right now. things have changed a lot, and i'd love some help from anonymous people, well, from the sythe community . after experiencing a first love, i kind of want love again? but i dont know if i'd want it from her. i've started talking to one of my old bestfriends that i used to be really close with again, me and her are only really friends, but i do have feelings for her and she makes me happy and we can talk hours on end. im on holidays atm until the start of feb, so im thinking about working out and getting more in shape and to look more attractive and see how things go from there.

i'd love any advice and help from any of this please guys! i'm really confused and would love any sort of advice!

 

Bro, just look for another girl there is plenty of fish in the sea.

 

Your better off without her. She seems like the "slag" type, no offense. Also, you need to move on like she has. Also, your friends aren't exactly friends if they joke about your GF...

 

Any couple who breaks up multiple times aren't really fit for eachother. That used to happen all the time in my high school and everyone knows how that goes. It's not going to work out in the long run. Focus on school and getting good grades and finding the right girl who you can do absolutely nothing with everyday and still have the time of your life.