What do I do?

So, as some of you know (my facebook friends), I am pretty close with my cousin. We are a few years apart in age so we've always gotten along pretty well. We've had our ups and downs but overall I'd consider her to be one of my best friends. Anyway, now that we're past the background for you guys who don't know my personal life, my cousin is over for the holidays. We are almost together every holiday and its the only time we really get to see each other. We normally have many things to catch up, play video games (she is cool like that) and go to the beach. However, this year was different... she just turned 21 in september so we decided to go party over the weekend. Before this, I have never seen her intoxicated or high, so it sounded like an adventure. We started off playing beer pong and believe it or not she was really good for a first timer. As the games went on, we both started getting tipsy and then ended up pretty drunk. We decided to stop playing and start talking to other people instead. I tried to flirt with other girls, but I saw that my cousin was uncomfortable when I left her out. Me, being the nice guy I am, stopped flirting around and tried to make my cousin feel as comfortable as possible. We went outside for a smoke and started talking with eachother. We were both drunk and said things we normally wouldn't. I saw all the signs and I couldn't resist any longer. I leaned in for the kiss and surprisingly she didn't reject me. I was worried shitless someone might have seen us, but no one did. For some sick reason, I wanted more, I couldn't help myself. I asked if she wanted to go home, and she said "right now?" and asked if she did something wrong. I said "No, I just want to spend some alone time with you, since you're only here on holidays and the party is getting lame." She seemed sort of confused but agreed to leave. While driving, she felt up on my crotch, I didn't know what to do. I wanted it so badly at this point, but I felt so awkward at the same time. In my drunken state, I couldn't resist any longer and I started undressing her, ripping off her clothing, she did the same for me. I knew what was happening and some reason I was harder than a rock. We ended up having sex in the car and and she said I was the best she's ever had. I secretly felt the same way, but afterwards I felt like complete shit, I didn't know what to say. Anyway, we ended up crashing in my room sleeping in the same bed, as normal. In the morning, I remembered everything, I felt like such a creeper. Eventually she woke up, and started the day as if nothing happened. She didn't even mention us having sex. I can hardly look her in the eyes as I feel so guilty. I want to ask her if she remembers, but I'm afraid of what will happen. I think I love her now and I don't know what to do. Please, Sythe, help me out.

inb4 tl;dr

 

oh shit...

 

The real problem here was that you weren't drunk enough to forget.

 

Gideon you troll.

 

Firstly, I need to know how distant she is of a cousin is she first cousins or what?

 

wait u lost ur verginity at family reunuion too?

 

im calling bs i bet a nerd like you has never got it in

 

I'm just sayin', if shes your 2nd cousin. Well done, you got pussy that night.

 

She's my first cousin but we look nothing alike. i'm half hispanic, and she is white pretty and blonde.

 

oh my gosh dude.
Dont tell anyone!

xanax?

 

I believed it until there.

 

You're disgusting, go die.

 

A present for Giddy:

 

here is a pic of her: (eyes blacked out for security reasons)

does this make it less creepy?

 

Moran.

 

Given what we know now, you did the right thing.

 

I'd fuck that. :S

 

lol'd

 

Giddy, because of the picture, you are now forgiven.

 

What do you do? You do what you did, again.