Most painful event/situation you have lived through?

I must apologize, sometimes my responses get so long that I purposefully do not address certain points to try and cut down the length. I did in fact read about your friend who attempted suicide and I am really sorry to hear that. I'm very happy she survived though. I've had a few people close to me commit suicide aswell (info can be found a page or 2 back when suicide came up as a topic), and so I can assure you I know how painful it is when you suddenly realize how much pain somebody that close to you is in.

Just be thankful she is still alive and that she is recieving treatment right now. Suicide is such an impulsive thing - it is often in a split second that a person decices to end their own life. Maybe after this whole experience, she will have a fresh perspective on things or be able to get the help she needs and look back on all this and be truly glad that she did not successfully complete what she set out to do. Life can be pretty grim sometimes, but there is so much beauty entwined within daily life - even with all the hardships we experience and those grueling days that are just a struggle to survive.

And thankyou Perhaps some day I will be able to accept the wonderful opportunity of becoming a Sythe mod! I think I still have quite a ways to go, but that would be a great honour if it ever came down to it.

If you'd like to add me on MSN, please feel free too I am not always online - but you can reach me on Sythe very easily via PM if you ever need to talk, and I can log in to MSN anytime. Please don't hesitate to contact me if you need somebody to talk to, or if you'd like to come back to this thread and update your situation. I'd love to hear from you! Thanks again for posting, gamertarded.

 

Around two years ago one of my cousins in Turkey was killed in a random firing in Turkey by PKK savages. It's devastating considering he was young and had his life ahead of him, makes my eyes water up. I haven't experienced a lot of pain physically but I got jumped one time, and fortunately I counter attacked efficiently , but not enough, another time my mom gave me and my brother the belt when she found out we were smoking weed.

 

I'm sorry to hear about your cousin man. I didn't realize Turkey had so much violence in the streets like that. It is always terribly sad when you hear of victims of senseless violence like this who just happen to be in the wrong place at the wrong time, and pay for it with their lives. I hope you are doing ok coping with your loss.

Physical pain usually doesn't take as long to get over, but that is not always the case. I've been beaten a few times so I know how much it sucks, and my mom used to take the wooden spoon to my ass once in awhile if she caught me doing something really bad when I was young

 

In response to what you said to me, I've recently also joined a program for the first time in my life. Gamblers Anonymous i needed it after i realized i became a compulsive gambler and it was affecting my emotional and financial life and it's taught me alot even though i've only been through two classes and i can relate it alot to this so i support you for what you're doing.
Also i do support you for personal support mod if you ever had the opportunity for it and needed a refference

 

I'm really happy to hear that, bro

Realizing you need help for ANY problem, and then taking the necessary steps to get help takes a whole lot of balls, and I totally respect anybody who has done it at some point in their lives. You can be addicted to all sorts of things, and when those things start to negatively affect your life there comes a time when you need to make a decision to do something about it. For my first 2-3 meetings I just showed up and hardly said a word either, I just sat there and listened to the much older, wiser guys talk about their experiences and I found inspiration in the fact these older men were able to do complete 180 turn arounds in their lives, usually at a much older age than myself. So kudos to you for taking those steps! And once again, thankyou for the support Lucster!

 

My dad was in hospital for 2 years and i was only like 12, i never asked what was wrong with him but he had a 10% chance of survival, visiting him everyday was just killing me.

He survived though and is as fit as a fiddle.

You die when you die i guess.

 

That's emotional, If I had a childhood like that I wouldn't know what to do.

 

Wow, I can't even imagine what that would be like. I grew up always having my Dad around, and not having to go visit the skeleton version of him in the hospital.

I'm glad to hear that you stuck by him through all that and that he is now healthy as a horse and fit & well Death will take us all at some point, but it just wasn't his time to go.

 

My dad attempted to commit suicide and OD on sleeping pills on my 16th birthday.

 

Yeah man, I read & posted in your other thread and I'm glad to hear that he survived and that you guys are working through this difficult time together.

This pretty much tops the list for tough & painful experiences, and so big props to you for holding it together and staying strong throughout this period in your life.

Things will get better man, just give it time & keep your head up Thanks for posting.

 

Fucking weird how 1 month ago I called that shit.


The hardest thing I've ever had to deal with is exactly what I expected. My relationship failed and I hate this shit. It's so depressing.

 

I've never broken a bone, but I've been screwed over by my ex-girlfriend in such a way that every time I think about the intimate times I cringe harder than I've ever cringed at any shocking internet gore gifs, I cringe at the fact that I was ever so stupid as that. Oh to be young.

 

Yeah man, I remember when you came in here and made that call. If you were able to foresee the inevitable ending of this relationship, then things must have not been that great/going wrong at the time, right? As much as it sucks when a long term relationship ends with somebody you love, sometimes the relationship just isn't healthy and is doomed from the beginning.

I still feel my heart splitting in half when I think of my ex girlfriend, who for some godamned reason I still love to this day. We were so in love for so long, but at the same time there was a lot of toxicity in the relationship.. we were just too young, and it got too intense way too fast. There was lots of jealousy, possessiveness, and controlling & manipulative behaviour that lead to fights. But it was so fucking silly, because I think we just loved each other way too much and so we forgot all about the rest of our lives, and that we were individuals aswell as a couple.

:'( . Just hang in there buddy. Please, like I keep saying man, don't hesitate to contact me if you need somebody to talk to. I've been there & done that and I know exactly what you are going through right now.

If you don't mind me asking Moh, how did your GF fuck you over? Were you just so in love & emotionally invested in her, and she basically betrayed you and threw it all away for another guy, or for w/e reason? I am interested to hear the story if you are comfortable disclosing that to me.

I know that cringeing feeling btw. Probably for different reasons, but I have cringed many a time nonetheless. Just last night I was digging through a pile of my old highschool essays to try and find one for my brother, as he is taking the same English course with the same teacher that I did. Before I found the essay, I stumbled upon a big envelope filled with about 300 notes that my ex-gf had written to me throughout our relationship, a few pics from our graduation that were framed and tucked away in the box, and worst of all - a note that we had been passing back and forth in Psychology one day, that I guess I kept.

Just reading through it made me feel like vomiting. It just brings back so many memories, so many feelings, and I remember exactly how much we loved each other and its just a reminder of that feeling I've felt so many times before about this girl.

I would rather look at an internet gore gif and cringe than find an old reminder of the biggest loss in my life tucked away in a box *cue violin music*

 

My dad (separated from my family since I was 5 but still close to me) committed suicide 4 years ago after seemingly getting in a lot of trouble with his shady business ''partners''. He borrowed all the money he could from all of his relatives, me included (my first $4K that I made from RS but I didn't have to think twice when he came to us, looking desperate) and then we didn't hear from him ever again until he was found a week later gassed in his car in the garage. The suicide note wasn't in his handwriting so I was sure he was cornered or forced into it. The police couldn't do anything. R.I.P.

 

Oh my god... thats horrible dude First of all, I'm really sorry to hear about your Dad's death.. that is just horrible enough on its own. But wow, if he came to every single member of his family looking for $$, including his young son, he must have been in some seriously deep trouble with these people..

How has this affected the rest of your life? If you don't mind me asking.. It's just that the situation sounds really 'fishy' to me. Your dad is deep in trouble with some guys, owes alot of money, and then is found dead in his garage a week later with a suicide note that wasn't in his own handwriting? Were there marks at all on his body that suggested a struggle took place or something?? It sounds to me like he almost was "forced" into it like you suggested, or perhaps even the victim of a homocide (perhaps after being unable to repay the $$ he owed). I know that if I was in your position, I would probably have alot of unanswered questions and frustration with the police for just sluffing it off as not being able to do anything. Has this event placed any mistrust in police for you, or in people in general?

Either way, I'm sorry for you bro I hope you are doing much better these days.

 

No, his acquaintances didn't come in contact with any of my family. We were not really his family anyway and they probably didn't want trouble cause obviously the whole thing would be traced to them if they did. Police just dismissed the case as suicide as fast as they could, as usual. I wasn't at the scene myself in person, tho. But I think what really happened was that he got depressed, drunk and did what he did while afraid the people might threaten his family (he remarried and I have a stepbrother). But I will never know for sure.

 

Godamn, well that sucks nonetheless.

Anyways, I appreciate you coming forward to talk about it with me and adding another interesting story to this thread. Its so inspiring to see how courageous and strong some people are when faced with these challenges in their lives. I admire all of you, thanks for posting Kratom

 

I went through a particular hard situation. I took a drug for enlarged prostate hearing all these good stories about it. Little did I know the drug would change my whole outlook on life. The drug blocked a enzyme which blocked conversion of a specific molecule proven too cause enlarging of the prostate. Anyway, I started too have symptoms of chronic fatigue, depression, muscle weakness, blurred vision. I couldn't concentrate on school and my coursework suffered because I couldn't study or anything. The fatigue was just overwhelming that I couldn't do anything. All I wanted too do was sleep and stay in bed. I stopped the drug but the side effects still persisted. I eventually found out after researching the drug that a ton of people were experiencing the same side effects. People would always tell me im lazy but I was scared too tell them the real truth. The persistent side effects are not even documented on the medication itself. The drug is also FDA approved which puts little trust in my government. The doctors really have no cure for this as I have done multiple blood tests and everything came back normal. I'm slowly recovering but life has been hell for me these past 3 years.

 

Unsconsiously? We really dont know. We are all suceptible to certain things due to childhood experiences.

To my memory? When I was 9 I had to "try" (had surgery instead) to pass a kidney stone a size that a MAN couldnt pass.

9 years later, I'm still plagued by kidney stones.

 

Man, that sounds like absolute hell. I know what it feels like when you are just completely, utterly depressed and you can barely get out of bed during the day, let alone do all the things a 'normal' person accomplishes during their days. I can only imagine the uncertainty and fear you must feel as you take tests and try to search for answers, only to find out that you are seemingly 'normal' yourself, and that the Doctor's cannot quite pinpoint what exactly is making you feel like this.

Try and stay strong bro, if you are noticing slow progress then that is progress nonetheless, so just keep at it one day at a time Its all about baby steps... hopefully sometime in the near future you can get your energy & alertness back, and your life can return to normal.

I actually cringed when reading this lol and I am still crossing my legs and squeezing. I've had a fear of kidney stones since I was a kid, of maybe having to pass one some day and the thought just terrifies me. I remember in grade 8 my teacher used to tell us stories about his kidney stones and how painful they were lol, shit scarred me for life.

I don't blame you for being traumatized! In fact, I think you just traumatized me too