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I would like to ask you one question first.

Would she like you to be like that right now?

 

I'd honestly try and get help, from a professional that is.
Just think of the things you still have, and try to make the best of it. After all she wouldnt want you doing this to yourself. You will see her again one day.
So sorry for your lose!

 

Tux, no and i wish it would make me take this easyer but god damn it! it dosen't

 

Nothing is easy in the world, nobody is perfect.

You have to be better for yourself, and move on with life doing your best.

 

Exactly what Tux is saying. Just think of what she wants for you. Things happen but you can get through things. This may be hard but it will build you even stronger in the end. She'd want the best for you and the best if for you to look at this and get through this.

I'm sure she would love to see the day you accept this. She's looking down on you.

 

If you ever feel like you just need someone to talk to, or even let out your frustrations at someone then please feel free to add my msn or PM me whenever at all.

 

Man OP... I don't think I can understand the pain you're feeling, but it really saddens me to here your story. I'd say listen to Tux on this one man, change your life to how she would have wanted you to be m8.

 

I really feel for you gwy, I couldn't imagine such a loss.

I would honestly try to talk to people you know, even a therapist or counselling.
Only time will solve the emotional phase your in right now, so don't give up you will come out of this as a stronger man.

Good luck bro, your going through a lot but you will feel better as time goes on.