dragonforce90
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For many months now, my brother and I have been smoking weed everyday.. Since the summer started we have been going through some very fucked up situations such as, anxiety attacks, panic attacks, seizure, and just some other weird cases of what seems to be epilepsy.. Keep in mind that we have given up smoking pot about two weeks ago due to us being terrified about who we are and what's happening. Every night lately we have been completely sober, but for some reason the stars have been noticeably different lately, and they have our full attention every night.. My brother is worse than me, he explains to me about how its all coming to an end and the world is covered up and we really don't understand what is about to happen. As I look at the stars I begin to cry and so does he. I really don't remember what goes on from that time until I wake up the next morning. I am getting so fucked up every night that I can't remember much at all. How does this happen with no chemical intake whatsoever? Can anyone relate to any of this? My brother just started college 4 days ago and is already having suicidal thoughts.. He is more stressed out, and just down right depressed than I have ever seen him. The dreams are horrible, I dream of family dieing, things ending very frequently, things I care about deeply coming to an end. I am sad all the time. My mother and father are concerned and so am I. He told me exactly how he was going to do it. He told me he was going to crash his car into my garage and die from monoxide poisoning.. This is my brother who I have grown up with, I don't know life without him, this is terrifying. If anyone can shoot me any advice, it could help allot.. Any experiences you may have had, any information at all.. Thank you for reading this..

















