UnHappy With Life Right Now

So I have been dating this girl for almost 4 years, we have been living together for about 3 years. We always talked about settling down together, Talking about marriage and kids. We even tried for a kid but she had a miscarriage..
I shooed off almost all of my friends for her so I could focus on just me and her.
Then yesterday she broke up with me. She will not talk to me or anything, She completely acts like she doesn't care anymore. But after everything we have been through everything that I thought we had I dont see how just could just completely give up.
I've always had a tough time with keeping relationships. I have never truly felt love and cared about someone and never have gotten butterflys in my stomache eachtime I see someone, Except for her.
I've always been kind of an antisocial person, Never really had any close family members or anything. So I have no one to talk to or anything. I just dont know what to do, I just want her to talk to me so we could try and work things out.

Also, Im on misdemeanor probation(Frequenting) and have a drug test tomorrow. I'm not going to pass, Last night when she broke up with me I couldnt think I couldnt do anything I was so heart broken so I smoked pot. I've always been a good person and have never been to jail or done anything really bad. I just feel like I fucked my whole life up in one day.
I've lost my job and my car has broken down and have no way of fixing it or anything, Ive have nothing anymore and every hour something else comes up and brings me down.
I have never really had anyone to vent my feelings to and try to help me other then her. Just thought I would give this a try..

 

1st: man that sucks about the girl. it will pass

2nd: get someone to piss in a ziplock baggie for you, tape it to your thigh, take it parole office. empty into bottle and flush baggie. pay them 10$ or something.

3rd: drugs will not solve your problems. in the long term they just make it worse, i mean weed is good yes do that, but dont turn to substances to make yourself feel good, you will then try acid, then shrrooms, then molly, then coke, then its all downhill.

 

It always gets better trust me dude

 

Talk to someone you can trust and who will listen dude. I know the feeling of hitting rock bottom and your making a good start by venting even if it is on the internet. As hard as it may sound try and keep a positive outlook on life and start fresh.

Girls are bitches, we all learn that sooner or later.

 

You need to boost your self-esteem.

Meet new people and experience other relationships. Where and how? That I can't tell you specifically, however the gym and cafes are a good start.

Aim for a job that caters to people. You will meet a lot of new people and make friendships. Also, do not talk to your ex first, wait it out. Sometimes women need their space and she may be depressed from the miscarriage.

Until then I hope it works out well for you.

 

Try and start talking and hanging out with your friends again. See if you can get friends/family to give you rides and try and get a job again to get some money flowing. After a while of working, you can fix your car again. I really hope that things will work out for you, let us know how it goes!

 

everything gets better man just go look for a new job and fix your car and also try and talk to your girlfriend somehow I wish the best of luck to you man.

 

Buy a Whizznator for the drug test.

 

stop trying to get your post count up. he said his drug test was "tomorrow" and he posted on the 20th, so clearly it's already over and done with.