Im a horrible person?

Last year i was really obnoxious,Like i was a huge creep and a total jack ass. I only thought about myself and just harrassed everyone around me. Im the type of dude who laughs at 9/11 jokes and adalia rose,bostin bombings..(you get it)
and i still do. I was always a "troll" you can say because i loved pissing people off but i guess doing that so much on the internet slowly i started doing it in real life without noticing it. Well i noticed all this 6 months ago and i had to change myself. But i think im still a asshole,i still laugh at national trageties and i think i might still be selfish. Ive been changing who i am but its difficult. I mean in the past 6 months ive made myself publicly bearable,Ive made alot more friends and tried to make myself a better person but i think i still inhibit the behaviors of me 6 months ago. What can i do to stop being such a asshole? my view on the world is "survival of the fittest" And i still sort-of believe that. I dont care about those starving children in africa,why should they concern me? Attitudes like that. But its who i am. I really restrain myself from douching around in real-life but i still think im also a massive smartass. Main question or tl;dr: Can you change in 6 months,Can what people think of you change in 6 months and how can i help myself in becoming a better person instead of a smartass bully.

 

Answering your final question I believe the answer is YES. If you have the desire to be a better person you will eventually change.

Its a great thing that you are aware of your terrible attitudes. We would also need to know the background you experienced/are experiencing to judge you as its not normal that a person doesnt care, atleast a bit, of the poor people starving at Africa.

Its also possible that you never had the need of caring, as your life might be great (talking in the economic part), you might have always received what you wanted, so why care of the others? You will need to understand it doesnt work like that.

Life is a gift and you cant go around treating people like crap, you can troll a guy and think it didnt hurt him emotionally but that dude could go home and start crying due to idiots like you trolling him without a reason. Thats why people start with the suicides and stuff like that. You need to get in the other people shoes, instead of trolling just be thankfull. for having everything you have in life.

 

You can't change who you are. If tragedy is humour to you, then all you can really do is count yourself among the many others who are the same. If it really bothers you then see a psychiatrist, maybe they could help you out.

As for the real life stuff, just be more considerate. Put yourself in the shoes of others, and if you do something that you think is wrong, remember not to do it next time. Be mindful of how others think and behave appropriately. Eventually it may leak into your private life and you'll be who you want to be at all times. It would work the same was as a fake smile - if you fake a smile, eventually you will feel happiness.

 

Life is about maturing and you're probably in the stages of doing that. It is ether really your personality type or a maturity level that you're at. Just remember to try and think about the people around you and how it maybe affecting them.

 

Normally i'd go on to tell you about how i'm an asshole too and that it's alright for the most part, but after reading your post it's almost as if you made this thread just to see who you could piss off. Just because you don't care about other peoples misfortunes doesn't mean you should make jokes about shit like that or talk down to people. You're saying you have been trying so hard to change and so on, but then say you still laugh at national disasters, people dieing, ect. Think about it, why do you find it funny when some one else is going through pain? Is it because its not you? it's not anyone you know? it doesn't effect you in any way? You're no better than anyone else in this world, you're human just like everyone else, and that's the great thing about being human you never know what could happen to you the next time you walk outside or the next time someone you love walks outside. No one is perfect and everyone has there own problems. I'm not telling you that you're wrong for being the way that you are because i have no right to judge you or tell you that, it's your life and i'm sure you'll live it how you please. One day you may need other people to save your life and thinking it won't happen to you, only makes it more likely to happen to you.

 

Your ethics are pretty fucked. This is my opinion, but the majority would view you as an asshole.

 

To be completely honest, sounds like you need a good ass kicking to set you straight

 

Violence isn't really the answer. Sounds like there is more of a need of a moral base or a role model. But you as a human know right from wrong naturally.

 

all im saying is, the quickest way to learn not to be an edgy 14 year old is to make some kind of offensive joke in front of the wrong person, and then face the consequences. however you can also just stop being shitty. it's literally that easy

 

Don't try to change who you are, be yourself. Just don't tell your friends or people what you actually think, you might not look like a douche then. Remember, be yourself.

 

You can only change if you push yourself to change. What people think of you can change but it depends on the person. Some might not take long to change what they think of you, others could need a lot of time.
Only you can help yourself become a better person. You don't have to care about some tragedies that happen, but I highly recommend you at least stop joking/trolling about them.

 

Usually I would say you are born who you are. But in this case you should really try to change your ways. Admitting to it and seeking help is aleady a good step forward. Hope u manage to change man

 

everyone is an asshole. everyone is biased. we just express it differently

 

From what it sounds like you're not a bad person, just have the wrong ethics at the minute, you're still young and I like to think as you as a "sponge" you absorb all the information as you're at your most vulnerability and take in all the information you're reading and hearing, if you're on forums, facebook games in particular you're going to hear people make jokes about 9/11 or sick facebook pages about Adelia Rose and you kind of hear about them and you're still young so you don't really know about how serious they are so you just say them for reactions...

I think the longer you sit there and think whether you are a bad person or not it will dwell upon you and you will start believing you're bad, just stop worrying dude. I don't cry every time I see staring Africans infact I hardly feel any emotion towards them but I don't make jokes about them or talk about them, because if I seen somebody do that then I'd be like "Wow you're an asshole".

Try watching "Woodysgamertag" on youtube he's a father who plays call of duty and minecraft with around a million subs, he gives great advice and someone you want to aspire to be like when you're older, you might learn a lot dude, who knows, just stop worrying.