insanity

fuckin life was fantastic untill shit hit the fan and im goin crazy and i needa let it out somewhere so why not here at sythe?
first off me and my friends were riding our dirtbikes and quads in the desert by my house and the fuckin cops show up and fucking impound my dirtbike but motherfuckers always ride there but no the fuck me over and take my 8000 dollar race bike. so now they suspended my license too so now im fucked and i cant get to work or school. then i got my girlfriend of a year and a half a 600 dollar ring for christmas cause i love her so fuckin much and we been through a lot together and then we get into a little argument and she takes it off and throws it at me and leaves and thats like the best part of my life walkin out so i threw my laptop against my wall and punched a whole in the wall and left and went to a friends for a few days and the kourt(my gf) called me and was like sry blah blah blah and so i asked her if she wanted to come to my friends and she did and she gets there and we were hangin out for a few hours and some guy named daniel texts her sayin hey sweetheart and she tried to hide the fact she got the text and i was like who is that? and she just got all kinds of defensive and is actin all shady the last few weeks and i just lost one of my best friends cause he fuckin overdosed on oxycontin and i feel like my girlfriend is slippin through my hands and im just tryin my hardest to hold on and i cant talk to anyone and i feel like i just like got nothin to wanna wake up for in the morning and now my sister fuckin bailed this guy outa jail that i foought before and we used to chill alot(me and my sister) and now she is goin downhill hangin out with this guy and i never see her anymore. what the fuck i feel like im loosin everyone that was close to me. what the fuck am i supposed to do?

 

Step back and take a look at yourself. Finish school get into college. Spend 20 years of your life working in a job that you enjoy. By a nice house. Settle down. Retire. Move to someplace else. Take who you care about with oyou. be happy. BTW you spelled hole wrong.

 

lol my bad about spelling hole wrong. i am in college. graduated a yr early but what the fuck do i do ya know. i need to smoke some weed thats what i needa do

 

Go ahead. Go the way of the actor. May I ask however why do you ask what should you do if you know you want to go stick some plants in your mouth?

 

got any better idea? for the short term? looooooooooool

 

Go to the beach. Have a picnic. Something fun and non drug related:S

 

lol too bad im in arizona. phx. picnic with myself. sounds fantastic haha no but thanks bro for actually caring

 

Ah Arizona.... I wish I lived there.

 

Sounds like you have a messed up life. You should dump your girlfriend, return the ring, and just focus on school. Then, when you're smart and rich, get a girlfriend.

 

Ye, pretty facked up
My life is pretty horrid too, but oh well, I just say screw everyone, imma live my life.
When my gf of a year and a half cheated on me, I just stayed to myself for a while, till I met a new girl, now weve been going out for about 5 months now.

 

20 years? The average retiring age is around 60..so that's 40 years.

 

Im assuming that he's eighteen.

 

If you assume he`s 18 that is still only 38.

 

If you're a police officer or work in the army you can retire after twenty years.

 

Life will do this to you, there is no such thing as living a 100% happy life, it will have its ups and down and they will even out. The best thing you can do now is keep pushing and do what you do, don't let life beat you down. I was near suicidal most of high school but I always had that small glimmer of hope that kept me hanging on to this world.

Buy a bike so you can get from school to work.

Clear things up with your girlfriend. Ask her who these guys are that are texting her and as a girlfriend she shouldn't be hiding these things from you.

If you can't talk to anyone, the best thing you can do is think. Just think about shit, you can figure a lot of stuff out about life without anyone influencing you opinions. I moved to the other side of the country in the middle of my junior year and stayed in every friday and saturday night of my senior year because I had no friends. I just came home and surfed the net and thought about many things and became a much smarter better person. I also stumbled upon bodybuilding.com and started lifting and eating and put 40 lbs of mostly muscle on my frame. Then highschool ended and I got to college and I'm living the life now. Just keep going and keep living life man. You can message me on aim if you wanna talk.

 

Very wise, very wise

 

You retire from physical combat and get a desk job. Police officers and veterans don't quit working at age 40/42.

Indeed, well said.

 

:O You should be a psychiatrist lol

 

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wow guys thanks for the support and dam prayer noobs u made me open my eyes a lil but im a social person so i cant just stay in lol i go crazy if i do from boredom but everything i took and will consider doing alot. thanks bro but i dont got aim lol